24 hours is not enough to compensate 120 hours of your absence.
Every weekend is like a dream.
A very very sweet dream that you wont want to wake up from.
However, as we all know.. it is shortlived.

We will have to wake up from that dream and come back to reality.
Reality starts when i drop you off at the terminal.
Living past each day eagerly looking forward to seeing you again.
It seems like i've forgotten how life should be.
How we used to go out for the whole afternoon, walking along the streets, going for drinks..
In short, enjoying each other's company; both quality & quantity time together.

I know we could have done so when you're back during the weekends.
But i cant be so selfish. Your family needs you too.
sigh. It's hard to keep a balance in everything in life.
Just hoping for this nightmare to end so we can be as happy as always.




To my baby boy:

I guess i've appeared to be very paranoid ever since you went to the army.
Seems like i'm overly worried about you not being able to survive in camp.
It's not because i dont believe in your abilities..
I just wanna be involved in your life.
I'm not able to go through what you've been going through for almost everyday.
I cant be there to share your woes.
But i promise i'll always be around to support you.
Always there to shower you with all the love, care & concern.
Never ever gonna leave my dear baby boy.

i love you. always.

Birthday is coming in two days.
Baby celebrated for me in advance.
Was really happy, filled with surprises and realised that a lot of people cared.

But the only down side is.. he's not around when the clock strikes 12., nt even on that day.
We had a promise.. we will be around to celebrate each other's birthday ever since 11 nov.
I understand the situation now but just feeling a little sore.

He's not just a phone call away. We're a sea apart.
Used to be able to drive to each other's house if we miss each other so much.
But not anymore.

Looking forward to every friday.
The anxiety, the emotions..
I'm tired.
I wanna get our lifes back.
Wanna have every waking moment togther.
Wanna be in his arms every night.

Please treasure your other half right now.
He might be playing games, studying, sleeping..
But he's there, within your reach.

When you said, "Most men are like that." It dawned upon me again to wake up and continue to love you less. i'm trying to love you lesser and lesser each day. The reason? To lessen the pain and hurt for the day when you're to leave or do any damages to the relationship. Perhaps this is the way i learn to protect myself.

Letting you into the walls came from a great deal of courage... and love. But time and time again you left me alone to face the world. Where are you when i needed you the most? Where are you when my world is crumbling? I dont wanna live each day waiting for you to come home, for you to finish all your errands, for you to give me a bit of attention and for you to comfort me. I dont wanna see myself in the future as a wife who waits for a husband who doesnt like to go home, who hates to hear from her and at the end find her an irritant. I dont want you to confide to anyone else about problems between us. Complain to them that i dont let you out, throw tantrums etc.

Loving you less or lesser than what i used to might solve all problems because i wouldnt care so much. Caring lesser means... you dont have to keep me updated of your whereabouts; you dont have to worry that i'll be unhappy with your boys night out; you dont need to talk to me on the phone; you can sleep all day. Basically, you can do whatever you want.

You always tell me to understand that you are very tired cus you have one thousand and one errands to run each day.
Sadly, I am one thousand and two.

People say "i dont need him to live. No one is indispensable." I used to not believe so, cus i need you. But i guess you forced it upon me unknowingly. I have to learn how to live without you. Learn how to be independent.

One day... perhaps one fine day when loving lesser has made the heart stopped beating for you then maybe it is time for us to part.

But i pray that day will never come.
Cus it's hard for me to.

Great grandma has left us forever on 30th Jan; 103 years old.
Held a 7 days funeral for her.
Everyone in the family is very bonded.
Chanting prayers and tranfering merits to her.
Hoping that we can do a little more for her after life.

She used to stay in my house for a period of time. Twice actually.
Once was when i was quite young.
She's the one who taught me how to speak teochew. :)
The second was when some renovations going on in her house.
Really had fun playing with her.
Seeing her do her morning exercises.
Wanting her coffee to be real sweet.
Her favourite was bread with red bean paste.

Great grandma did came back to see us.
Mum prepared some food and placed on he dining table.
So that she has something to eat when she visits.
The siew mai was overturned.
One of the days, I bought bee tai mak soup for her but she never came.
My grandma prepared some at her house as well.
Great grandma took a bite of a piece of papaya and covered the rest with tissue.

All these may sound scary but afterall she's my Lao Ma.
Someone was dotes on my mum alot.
Mummy was her favourite grand daughter.
That's why on the last day of her funeral, mum couldnt take it and broke down.
She was crying so badly that she couldnt even walk.

This set me thinking...
One day we're all gonna face this.
Our parents will get old and soon they will leave us forever.
The sight of seeing your parents lying in the coffin.
Seeing the coffin moving into the crematory.
And in seconds it's all reduced to ashes.
All these years of bringing you up, talking to you, always be there for you... gone.
Sigh. I dont want this day to come.

17 Dec

Kidnapped WJ to the zoo early in the morning.
I just drove him straight there without telling him or else we'll never be able to go
Reached there at 9.
Had breakfast with the Orang Utans at the Ah Meng Restaurant.
They are super cute. Very human like.

Next, we went for the Polar Bear feeding show. The polar bears here are so poor thing!
One of the polar bear, Inuka, was born in Singapore.
So ironic right?? He's a Polar Bear from the poles but he's never been there before.

FACT: Polar bears have black skin with clear fur. Fur appears white because under light reflection.

Shaw Foundation Amphitheatre has this wonderful show called "Animal Fights Back".
It's bout humans wanting to clear out the forest to make way for buildings and roads.
In the show, animals will be let out to run across the stage or walk on the tight rope above the audiences' head. The best thing is you'll never know when or where they are coming out from. It's like a surprise for the audiences.

They have this other show called "Splash!" displaying marine animals.
The seal,Patrick, is damn funny. He does very amazing stunts and tricks.
He will try to play dead when he's asked to do impossible tasks.

Next, we went to watch the elephants at work. The show's pretty much like what i saw in Thailand. So nothing special.

We went around to see the rest of the animals after that.
Saw the baboons. Their butts are really freaking red! Swollen to the max for the females.

See what i mean??

This is reason!

They had this Australian Outback section that has Kangaroos and emus.
Nothing much in there though. Just that we can get to touch one of the kangaroos that runs wild.

Went to see the white tiger. They look so dead.
Guess they were kept in captive for too long that they lost all their vibe.

This picture is classic!! hahaha.

This cheetah is just sleeping beside the glass.
WJ knocked on the glass but the cheetah had no reaction at all.

Another classis photo! It seems like the lioness is looking at the camera!

23 Dec

Pre-christmas party at Alastair's house. Was kinda late for the party. Didnt know that it started since 3 pm. Reached there only at 9pm when the fuction room closes at 10pm.

Alas's dad taught us a new game. "Who's the werewolf?"
He's dad is really funny. Very cool and trendy. haha.
There was a gift exchange. The present i brought was labelled 13 and when i picked for a number for my gift in return, i got 13 as well!!!! Coincidence or what.

24 Dec

Christmas party at WJ new house.
It's more of a gathering rather than a party.
His house is still not ready for parties yet so we just invited some close friends.
The food seems a lot at the beginning but we mananged to polish every single bit
except for the turkey.


Goody and i was in-charge for the decorations for the night.
I reused the centre piece from WJ 19 birthday. Just changed the colours.
The theme was Red & Green.


WJ's grandma came over for the party was well. She's damn cute!


Daddy came over for the party as well. He brought Ashley along!
All of them love Ashley to bits! She became the centre of attention.
Everyone is just going gaga over her.


We all drank quite a bit.
Finished 4 bottles of red wine, two bottles of scotch whiskey.



We had an internal gift exchange amongst ourselves.
WJ's brother's friends didnt prepare so yeah.
I love the presents from them! They are so thoughtful.
Joan and kim got WJ & I Faceshop products. (:
Sheryl and Woen got me this Precious Moments hand wash & cream set.
They got WJ Lacoste towels. Really what he needs now. (:

We played "Who's the werewolf?" again with WJ's brother & friends and his sister.
Damn funny. We laughed till the parents had to call upstairs to tell us to lower
our volumn or the neighbours might complain.
One of his brother's friend got drunk.
Because the werewolf gotta drink if he/she is caught.
muahaha. Everyone enjoyed themselves!

26 Dec

Boxing Day party at Eldric's apartment.
Went there late as usual.
The food was great.
Eldric has this damn cool game set. Rock band or something.
It has the drums set,two guitar and a mike.
There was this singing game as well.
It's like u gotta sing to the pitch to score.
The songs are pretty hip like toxic, so sick etc.
Fun fun. Gift exchange was even more exciting.
Germaine and errol gave us gifts that were very interesting.
Wonder how they get the idea eh.
Pictures are still with Alas. Shall get it from him soon.

2 Jan



Eldric's farewell party. Late again.
It's a uniform party but WJ cant find his so turned up in normal clothes.
But it's kinda like our uniforms now.
Made him a calendar filled with our pictures and our birth dates. (:
Left the party to meet WJ's brother and sister at Dempsy Ben&Jerry's.
Stayed out till 5 am. Looked like a zombie the next day.

Yeps. This is how i spend my two weeks of holidays.
Monopoly till wee hours with Sheryl and Woen.
Movies with WJ's siblings.
Shopping spree with Sheryl at Isetan.
Car shopping with Daddy and WJ.
etc. etc. etc. etc.
Never been so happy! :D

Daddy's buying me a new car!
Just one for myself. Haha.
But i'm not getting my peugeot.
He's getting me the Honda Fit with the sky roof.
It's an alternative for the peugeot though.
He says just get this first rough it out for a year or so then change.
I'm contented!
Dont have to fight for cars.
Sky roof.
Violet / pearl white.
i get to put heels, shawl, cushions, sunglasses, SHOPPING BAGS etc in the car.
Whee. lala.

Now the problem is when i will get my car.
It's either i can get it before christmas.. which is not so worth it. (08 / 09 model thing)
Or i can get it starting of next year.. most prob car plate will be SJM
haiyo. shall just leave it to my dad to decide.
Anyway he's the one paying. :D

I'm so excited!!

I'm currently blogging at WJ new's house!! haha.
He moved in officially last tuesday.
House warming will be much later i guess.
Gotta settle down and get everything done before all the guests can come in.
His house is huge. It's a potential house for parties!!
Took a few pictures of his house, shall upload it soon. :)

Went ikea with him, woen and sheryl yesterday.
Super duper happy.
I love ikea to bits man.
There's so many things there.
Wrote a long list of stuff to buy for WJ's room but didnt get much in the end.
He keep saying not now and all.. just like what woen said to sheryl.
oh wells. Nevertheless i'm still damn happy!

Sheryl & Woen will be going to malaysia this weekend.
Coming back only next tuesday.. hur hur.
Joan & Kim are in malaysia already.
Dont know when they are coming back.
So just left me and WJ.
No more late night gossips or coffee all the way till tuesday. haiyo.
But i'm looking forward to the surprise that i planned for WJ on wednesday!!
lala.

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