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Worst time of my life

2010-10-02T03:39:00.000+08:00

3.02am. Friday night. At home. Blogging.
How miserable can life get?
Called everyone who can possibly be awake at this hour.. and guess what?
They are all out.
Called everyone except you.. cus i didnt dare to.
I'm afraid you might be in the midst of a discussion with your brother.
And you're gonna tell him everything again.
Not sure what you've told him and what you've not.
I guess he knows much more than i do.
I cant believe you actually told him bout our problems.
I dont go around telling my mum nor my brother.

It really makes me wonder whether i'm attached or.. ?
At most 1 - 2 phone calls a day. Each not lasting more than 10mins.
Text messages are short.
Based on current facts, no emotions or feelings. ( I'm busy. I'm tired. Sorry. etc.)
No matter how long your messages are, how emotion filled it is.. the replies are short, crisp and simple.
Seems like those templates that were stored previously.

I'm currently living each day with lectures, tutorials... photos & memories of you & me.
At this hour, i had no choice but to call other people.
Call them to talk cus i cant sleep.. cus i'm not feeling well.
I cant call you.
Can anyone tell me or lie to me that this is right, this is common, this is what it's suppose to be in a relationship???
I find myself no longer able to confide in you.
I'm afraid to do so. You get irritated and frustrated every time.

This is not what i want.
Why am i doing all this for? Why do i have to be in such a state?
I have choices. I chose to be with you. And this is what i get..

Nowadays, i have to ask you out instead.
You've never ever planned anything or ask me out anymore.
Even if you did, it was to have dinner with your family.

And when we're out, you tell me to treasure it and not spoil the time talking bout issues between us. It makes me feel cheap.
I dont need you to sympathise me.
It's been a long time since i felt special.. like your one and only.
I'm like this girlfriend that is needed only if you have events at home, or when you've got no company. It's seems like it's just for show.

Life's so miserable now.. i'm only left with this blog to vent my frustrations.
FML.

Non-existence

2010-09-30T16:45:00.001+08:00

I feel that you're just with me physically and your heart is with someone else.
Really wonder if there's another person in your life now.
Not only we're drifting apart. I feel that there are so many things left unsaid.
You fell asleep while i was talking to you bout smt important concerning the both of us.

Our car ride was never so quiet before.
It used to be countless conversations to talk about.
Used to laugh at little little things tgt.
It's only silence. I dont know what's going thru your mind.

You flare up at me for no reason.
I was just being concerned about you.
This further proves that i dont mean a thing to you.
You never ever shout at me for no reason.
i guess you are really seeing someone.
This explains why you jump upon every chance to be out without me.
Acting guilty whenever i'm around.
Refuse to tell me what went on for your day / outing.
Shrug off your absence with the word "stuff to do" or "family matters".

I think i really need to get away for a while to understand what i want from you and how are we going to carry on from here...

Back to square one.

2010-09-23T02:12:00.000+08:00

I have no idea when all these emotions have beening building inside.
Whenever i talk to someone about it, it seems the same.
I'm repeating my complains and unhappiness.
When will this resolve?

Perhaps when one day, you finally wake up and realise something has been wrong all these while.
Then there might be a change, a solution to all these unhappiness.
I see people trying so hard to change and making an effort to do something.
But i dont see it from you. I'm sick of the endless talking, tantrum, quarrels..
Everyone is afraid of losing.. losing that special someone.
What about you?

Am i so insignificant that you dont mind losing at all?
Or am i not important anymore?

I'm sick and tired of endless trying.
Trying to be the selfless one, giving everything, sacrificing my time..
I dont want to be the one putting in the effort to communicate, finding out your plans..
And all you do is keeping quiet.
What pains me the most is.. you dont behave like this when you're with other people.
Laugh, joke.. etc. but not keeping quiet.

Talked to your over the phone. Quarreled, argued..
Nothing comes out of it. All that you've said, are purely excuses.
Reasons to make yourself sound remorseful but nothing has changed deep down inside.
You are still not getting the ultimate reason for this argument.
Told you that everything is over, you take it as I'm falling into the trend.
Told you that I'm unhappy, you say i'm feeling victimised.
What more can i say?

Maybe i have to agree with you that I'm sick.
Sick till the deepest core ever.
Sick. Sick. Sick.
This four letter word is the worst i've ever heard from you.
It's far worse than fuck. seriously.
You have no idea how deep it cuts my heart to hear it.
I didnt know i disgust you so much to categorize me to that of maids, stupid idiots on the road, retards etc.

It really makes me wonder why are you still holding on.
The pure company when you need it?
Because you're in the army?
Because you dont wanna be the victim which means you fell for the "trend"?
So at the end of the day, it's still the face that matters to you.
I'm totally not in the picture.

This is fucking nerve wrecking.
How i wish i can just let go and not be bothered.

What if

2010-08-04T16:58:00.000+08:00

What If

what if?

what if I'm the one for you?

and you're the one for me?

what if...

if you are the one

then us meeting here is fate

future with a dog named Ben

buy a house with a fireplace

this is the first I've seen your face

but there a chance we are soulmates

I know that this might sound crazy

cuz you don't know my name

but we can't we can't tell

the future no

the first kiss, the beauty of the world we know

so Imma say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu

baby, what if

we all can say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu

baby, what if

picture me on one knee

with the perfect diamond ring

we just met, but if you say "yes"

we'd have our wedding on the beach

it could happen, raise three kids

and we grow old so happily

I know this may sound crazy

cuz I don't know your name

but we can't we can't tell

the future no

But that's just, the beauty of the world we know

so Imma say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu

baby, what if

we all can say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu

baby, what if

don't know what tomorrow brings

but i'm still hoping

that you are the one for me

oh and what if I had you and what if you had me and

baby, what's the reason we can't fall in love?

what if

but we can't we can't tell

the future no

But that's just the beauty of the world we know

so Imma say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu

baby, what if

we all can say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu

baby, what if but we can't

we can't tell the future no

But that's just the beauty of the world we know

so Imma say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu

baby, what if

we all can say duuuduuu duuuduuu duuudu duuudu

baby, what if

Love

2010-07-07T01:33:00.000+08:00

Gotten this from Goodie's blog.
This clearly states how things in life really is.

Love by Amanda Norton

Love is something that is not easily explained.
No one word can express it.
And no one person feels the same about it.

It’s waking up in the morning wanting to be with that one person
And going to bed feeling the same way.

It’s knowing that you want to spend the rest of your life with him
And it’s a feeling so great that no matter what anyone says will never be taken away.

It’s crying every night when the one you love doesn’t love you back.
It’s feeling that pain in your heart when you lose that one person
But to just hear those three little words come from his mouth
And actually know he means it.
That’s the best feeling in the world

To know that someone loves you for you
And wants to be with you forever.

Love is hard to find, and even harder to keep.
It takes time and effort to keep it going.
But you don’t mind because you would do anything in the world to keep it.
It’s knowing that when you come home you’ll have someone to share your day with.
It’s that last conversation of the night before you fall asleep

He’s the first one you want when you wake up.
The only thing that’s on your mind all day, every day.
It’s knowing that someone’s always there for you to cry on,
Someone’s always there for you to talk to about anything
And won’t judge you for that.

It’s the person you feel the most comfortable with in the world
And to know that you have that.
That you share that special bond with one other person.
That’s the best feeling in the world.

But when you lose that feeling
When you lose the only thing that ever mattered to you
It seems like life has no purpose, no point at all.
You feel like you could just curl up and die.
That nothing or no one else matters to you
And the only thing that you’ve ever wanted is now gone.
You will do anything to get him back,
Because he’s worth it

You’ll try and try until one day you realize,
That things will never be the same again.
Your love is still there, deep inside of you
So you try your best to just be friends,
And it works for a while.
But the feelings are still there.

And no matter how hard you try friend will never be good enough.
So you want to forget about him, but that’s even harder.
There’s too many memories, to many good times to just forget
And no matter what you do, he’s always there.

Everywhere you look, everything you do, every place you go,
Every song you hear, every guy you see,
Reminds you of him.

You hope someday you’ll be back together
But until then there’s nothing you can do
But sit and cry, to go through that pain when he talks about
Another girl he likes, or how good his life is going.
And that pain breaks your heart day after day.

Tear after tear, until you have no mores tears to cry
Until you just get used to that hole in your heart that won’t go away.
That pain that never leaves you.
That lonely feeling that stays with you forever.

You may have other guys, but nothing or no one could ever compare, and you know that.

Things are a lot better now.
I know i'm really planning for myself, making myself useful again..
Guess it's really not expecting too much and not letting yourself slip into a self-pity/ denial state.
Taking things easy and on a lighter note. Not being a cang qiong spider.

Heard a song and got reminded how crazy i was over it last time and the emotions i had.
It really brought back memories. haha.
Cant find the actual video.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PGguwTOW-_8

Taking the first step

2010-07-04T04:09:00.001+08:00

People have been telling me to get my life back.
Dont need to make things revolve around him.
I know i need to live my life.
But it's difficult to take the first step.
My life has been on a halt for 3yrs.
I've lost touch with how to make friends, getting use to the loneliness etc.

On top of that, I'm afraid we will drift apart, even further than now.
I know living my life is a win-win situation for me.
But if he doesnt realise anything after all this, then what?
We will just end up as nothing.
I dont want things between us to turn out that way.
Giving up now is not an option. Not anymore.
Cus i still love him, ever so much.

I really could use a wish right now.

Subject: Sorry

2010-07-01T05:21:00.000+08:00

Things ended nastily again.
I feel like a fool having to be hung up and frantically trying my best to call back.
It seems like a dog begging it's owner not to abandon her.

Why will things end up like this?
Someone told me this..
"Things change, people change. Dont expect everything to be as before. Initial days of being tgt will never ever be back"
I swear to God that i've never lusted over the honeymoon period.
I know that things will never be the same.
But all i need is a little more attention and effort.
Why are his actions so drastic?
He used to stalk my blog, talk to me on the phone for hours..
Now? Forsaken blog, hate to talk on the phone.

For whatever reason that can be.. i'm determined to change things.
I want my life back. Youth shouldnt be wasted.
I'm not being selfish for wanting to live the way i want to. Right?
Guess i've been selfless for too long, till the extent that i'm becoming invisible.
I want to be known for who i am and not someone else's girlfriend.

I want to be a cat.
No longer a dog, waiting with a wagging tail.

Wishful thinking

2010-06-30T11:55:00.000+08:00

I realise i have a habit of blogging when i'm upset.
Perhaps it's an avenue for me to pour all sorrows.

.... where should i start..
Maybe this is how i feel..

We don't talk the way we used to talk
It's hurtin' so deep
I've got my pride, I will not cry
But it's makin' me weak

I fought my way through the rush hour

Trying to make it home just for you
I want to make sure that your dinner
Will be waiting for you

It's takes a companion to form a couple
Without a companion, one will be so lonely.

Try to find means and ways to go over and look for you.
Abandon everything at home.
In the end, you went out instead.
Asking me to stay at home, or send me home.
All i want is more time with you.
I feel that i've become very unreasonable.
It's just my wishful thinking.
Shouldn't expect you to feel the same.

Wanted you to stay up for 5mins just to talk to me a lil.
But you couldnt, you became very irritated with me.
Saying you need to sleep cus you gotta go camp early in the morning.
Now you're out with your friends, spending the night away merry making till the wee hours.
Have things changed?

Holiday

2010-06-29T16:30:00.000+08:00

Just been dragged to the office. Reach here at 345pm.
Going to leave in about 45mins later? Wj is coming over to pick me now.
Parents just wants me to be here no matter what. I dont understand.
They feel happy for me to be here even if it's just an hour.

Life has been pretty peaceful.
Nothing exciting, nothing dramatic.
Went out with baby on Thursday night to Wine Co. for a drink.
Ordered South African wine. Quite tasty, would definitely go back for that.
Had a lil adventure after that.
Enjoyed myself. But time spent was realy short.
Havent had this for a long time.

When baby didnt have to go army, time was spent running errands.
Now that he's in, time is spent on resting.
Feel like going away for a while, just the two of us.
Living the way life should be. Enjoying every moment.

Going to Melbourne with Baby on the 13th.
We're going on a road trip to Gold Coast, Sdyney, Sunshine Coast... with Dage, May & Ta You.
Hopefully the itinerary that we planned out will be effective.
Wanna make use of the time spent and the efforts of choing miles and miles on the road.
Cant wait to catch a crab, visit the oyster farm, go to Eumundi market etc.
A holiday that i've been waiting for.

Bored at work

2010-06-16T16:06:00.000+08:00

Work at the office is pretty boring.
Typing stuff into the com and act busy all the time.
Here i am blogging and sipping my campbell soup away. hahaha.

Had to wake up super early today to go for prayers.
Was in and out of the rain non stop.
Went back home to take a shower and 5 mins nap and i was dragged to office by my mum.
Cant wait for it to be 445pm so i can pick Ashley up from school and go home.
I wanna sleep..

Just a random thought: I've only been blogging whenever i'm upset...

Reminiscing

2010-06-15T00:59:00.000+08:00

Was reading my past blog entries and imagining you reading them.
Made a decision but i'm not sure will it be beneficial.
I need some advice on this...
Seriously smt needs to be done. Or all these will just continue to persist.
I've been feeling this for the longest time.
Every time i tried to talk to you about it, you just brush it off as a tantrum.
Do i have to do smt drastic to get your attention?
I really dont know.
Everything is so negative now. There's no glimpse of hope at all.
Well at least i dont see it. Sigh.
I'll probably come to a decision after these two days; Tuesday & Wednesday.
See how things go and how you make me feel again.

Dont get me wrong here.. I'm not sick of you.
In fact, i love you loads.
It's just that i dont feel the love and attention from you anymore.
I seem like a burden to you.
Constantly preventing you from doing things you wanna do.
Making life difficult for you.
You no longer want me, no longer need me..
I feel redundant in your life. I feel like i'm an extra.
Just being there for the sake of having a person around. But never the lead.
But anyways, you will never read this.
Cus you've forgotten about it.

My life

2009-11-03T00:01:00.000+08:00

24 hours is not enough to compensate 120 hours of your absence.
Every weekend is like a dream.
A very very sweet dream that you wont want to wake up from.
However, as we all know.. it is shortlived.

We will have to wake up from that dream and come back to reality.
Reality starts when i drop you off at the terminal.
Living past each day eagerly looking forward to seeing you again.
It seems like i've forgotten how life should be.
How we used to go out for the whole afternoon, walking along the streets, going for drinks..
In short, enjoying each other's company; both quality & quantity time together.

I know we could have done so when you're back during the weekends.
But i cant be so selfish. Your family needs you too.
sigh. It's hard to keep a balance in everything in life.
Just hoping for this nightmare to end so we can be as happy as always.

To my baby boy:

I guess i've appeared to be very paranoid ever since you went to the army.
Seems like i'm overly worried about you not being able to survive in camp.
It's not because i dont believe in your abilities..
I just wanna be involved in your life.
I'm not able to go through what you've been going through for almost everyday.
I cant be there to share your woes.
But i promise i'll always be around to support you.
Always there to shower you with all the love, care & concern.
Never ever gonna leave my dear baby boy.

i love you. always.

Birthdays

2009-10-12T02:56:00.000+08:00

Birthday is coming in two days.
Baby celebrated for me in advance.
Was really happy, filled with surprises and realised that a lot of people cared.

But the only down side is.. he's not around when the clock strikes 12., nt even on that day.
We had a promise.. we will be around to celebrate each other's birthday ever since 11 nov.
I understand the situation now but just feeling a little sore.

He's not just a phone call away. We're a sea apart.
Used to be able to drive to each other's house if we miss each other so much.
But not anymore.

Looking forward to every friday.
The anxiety, the emotions..
I'm tired.
I wanna get our lifes back.
Wanna have every waking moment togther.
Wanna be in his arms every night.

Please treasure your other half right now.
He might be playing games, studying, sleeping..
But he's there, within your reach.

afraid

2009-09-04T03:09:00.000+08:00

When you said, "Most men are like that." It dawned upon me again to wake up and continue to love you less. i'm trying to love you lesser and lesser each day. The reason? To lessen the pain and hurt for the day when you're to leave or do any damages to the relationship. Perhaps this is the way i learn to protect myself.

Letting you into the walls came from a great deal of courage... and love. But time and time again you left me alone to face the world. Where are you when i needed you the most? Where are you when my world is crumbling? I dont wanna live each day waiting for you to come home, for you to finish all your errands, for you to give me a bit of attention and for you to comfort me. I dont wanna see myself in the future as a wife who waits for a husband who doesnt like to go home, who hates to hear from her and at the end find her an irritant. I dont want you to confide to anyone else about problems between us. Complain to them that i dont let you out, throw tantrums etc.

Loving you less or lesser than what i used to might solve all problems because i wouldnt care so much. Caring lesser means... you dont have to keep me updated of your whereabouts; you dont have to worry that i'll be unhappy with your boys night out; you dont need to talk to me on the phone; you can sleep all day. Basically, you can do whatever you want.

You always tell me to understand that you are very tired cus you have one thousand and one errands to run each day.
Sadly, I am one thousand and two.

People say "i dont need him to live. No one is indispensable." I used to not believe so, cus i need you. But i guess you forced it upon me unknowingly. I have to learn how to live without you. Learn how to be independent.

One day... perhaps one fine day when loving lesser has made the heart stopped beating for you then maybe it is time for us to part.

But i pray that day will never come.
Cus it's hard for me to.

Forever in our hearts

2009-02-10T23:20:00.000+08:00

Great grandma has left us forever on 30th Jan; 103 years old.
Held a 7 days funeral for her.
Everyone in the family is very bonded.
Chanting prayers and tranfering merits to her.
Hoping that we can do a little more for her after life.

She used to stay in my house for a period of time. Twice actually.
Once was when i was quite young.
She's the one who taught me how to speak teochew. :)
The second was when some renovations going on in her house.
Really had fun playing with her.
Seeing her do her morning exercises.
Wanting her coffee to be real sweet.
Her favourite was bread with red bean paste.

Great grandma did came back to see us.
Mum prepared some food and placed on he dining table.
So that she has something to eat when she visits.
The siew mai was overturned.
One of the days, I bought bee tai mak soup for her but she never came.
My grandma prepared some at her house as well.
Great grandma took a bite of a piece of papaya and covered the rest with tissue.

All these may sound scary but afterall she's my Lao Ma.
Someone was dotes on my mum alot.
Mummy was her favourite grand daughter.
That's why on the last day of her funeral, mum couldnt take it and broke down.
She was crying so badly that she couldnt even walk.

This set me thinking...
One day we're all gonna face this.
Our parents will get old and soon they will leave us forever.
The sight of seeing your parents lying in the coffin.
Seeing the coffin moving into the crematory.
And in seconds it's all reduced to ashes.
All these years of bringing you up, talking to you, always be there for you... gone.
Sigh. I dont want this day to come.

Festive Seasons

2009-01-05T13:06:00.000+08:00

17 Dec

Kidnapped WJ to the zoo early in the morning.
I just drove him straight there without telling him or else we'll never be able to go
Reached there at 9.
Had breakfast with the Orang Utans at the Ah Meng Restaurant.
They are super cute. Very human like.

Next, we went for the Polar Bear feeding show. The polar bears here are so poor thing!
One of the polar bear, Inuka, was born in Singapore.
So ironic right?? He's a Polar Bear from the poles but he's never been there before.

FACT: Polar bears have black skin with clear fur. Fur appears white because under light reflection.

Shaw Foundation Amphitheatre has this wonderful show called "Animal Fights Back".
It's bout humans wanting to clear out the forest to make way for buildings and roads.
In the show, animals will be let out to run across the stage or walk on the tight rope above the audiences' head. The best thing is you'll never know when or where they are coming out from. It's like a surprise for the audiences.

They have this other show called "Splash!" displaying marine animals.
The seal,Patrick, is damn funny. He does very amazing stunts and tricks.
He will try to play dead when he's asked to do impossible tasks.

Next, we went to watch the elephants at work. The show's pretty much like what i saw in Thailand. So nothing special.

We went around to see the rest of the animals after that.
Saw the baboons. Their butts are really freaking red! Swollen to the max for the females.

See what i mean??

This is reason!

They had this Australian Outback section that has Kangaroos and emus.
Nothing much in there though. Just that we can get to touch one of the kangaroos that runs wild.

Went to see the white tiger. They look so dead.
Guess they were kept in captive for too long that they lost all their vibe.

This picture is classic!! hahaha.

This cheetah is just sleeping beside the glass.
WJ knocked on the glass but the cheetah had no reaction at all.

Another classis photo! It seems like the lioness is looking at the camera!

23 Dec

Pre-christmas party at Alastair's house. Was kinda late for the party. Didnt know that it started since 3 pm. Reached there only at 9pm when the fuction room closes at 10pm.

Alas's dad taught us a new game. "Who's the werewolf?"
He's dad is really funny. Very cool and trendy. haha.
There was a gift exchange. The present i brought was labelled 13 and when i picked for a number for my gift in return, i got 13 as well!!!! Coincidence or what.

24 Dec

Christmas party at WJ new house.
It's more of a gathering rather than a party.
His house is still not ready for parties yet so we just invited some close friends.
The food seems a lot at the beginning but we mananged to polish every single bit
except for the turkey.

Goody and i was in-charge for the decorations for the night.
I reused the centre piece from WJ 19 birthday. Just changed the colours.
The theme was Red & Green.

WJ's grandma came over for the party was well. She's damn cute!

Daddy came over for the party as well. He brought Ashley along!
All of them love Ashley to bits! She became the centre of attention.
Everyone is just going gaga over her.

We all drank quite a bit.
Finished 4 bottles of red wine, two bottles of scotch whiskey.

We had an internal gift exchange amongst ourselves.
WJ's brother's friends didnt prepare so yeah.
I love the presents from them! They are so thoughtful.
Joan and kim got WJ & I Faceshop products. (:
Sheryl and Woen got me this Precious Moments hand wash & cream set.
They got WJ Lacoste towels. Really what he needs now. (:

We played "Who's the werewolf?" again with WJ's brother & friends and his sister.
Damn funny. We laughed till the parents had to call upstairs to tell us to lower
our volumn or the neighbours might complain.
One of his brother's friend got drunk.
Because the werewolf gotta drink if he/she is caught.
muahaha. Everyone enjoyed themselves!

26 Dec

Boxing Day party at Eldric's apartment.
Went there late as usual.
The food was great.
Eldric has this damn cool game set. Rock band or something.
It has the drums set,two guitar and a mike.
There was this singing game as well.
It's like u gotta sing to the pitch to score.
The songs are pretty hip like toxic, so sick etc.
Fun fun. Gift exchange was even more exciting.
Germaine and errol gave us gifts that were very interesting.
Wonder how they get the idea eh.
Pictures are still with Alas. Shall get it from him soon.

2 Jan

Eldric's farewell party. Late again.
It's a uniform party but WJ cant find his so turned up in normal clothes.
But it's kinda like our uniforms now.
Made him a calendar filled with our pictures and our birth dates. (:
Left the party to meet WJ's brother and sister at Dempsy Ben&Jerry's.
Stayed out till 5 am. Looked like a zombie the next day.

Yeps. This is how i spend my two weeks of holidays.
Monopoly till wee hours with Sheryl and Woen.
Movies with WJ's siblings.
Shopping spree with Sheryl at Isetan.
Car shopping with Daddy and WJ.
etc. etc. etc. etc.
Never been so happy! :D

Big big present

2008-12-16T23:24:00.000+08:00

Daddy's buying me a new car!
Just one for myself. Haha.
But i'm not getting my peugeot.
He's getting me the Honda Fit with the sky roof.
It's an alternative for the peugeot though.
He says just get this first rough it out for a year or so then change.
I'm contented!
Dont have to fight for cars.
Sky roof.
Violet / pearl white.
i get to put heels, shawl, cushions, sunglasses, SHOPPING BAGS etc in the car.
Whee. lala.

Now the problem is when i will get my car.
It's either i can get it before christmas.. which is not so worth it. (08 / 09 model thing)
Or i can get it starting of next year.. most prob car plate will be SJM
haiyo. shall just leave it to my dad to decide.
Anyway he's the one paying. :D

I'm so excited!!

New place

2008-12-10T12:11:00.000+08:00

I'm currently blogging at WJ new's house!! haha.
He moved in officially last tuesday.
House warming will be much later i guess.
Gotta settle down and get everything done before all the guests can come in.
His house is huge. It's a potential house for parties!!
Took a few pictures of his house, shall upload it soon. :)

Went ikea with him, woen and sheryl yesterday.
Super duper happy.
I love ikea to bits man.
There's so many things there.
Wrote a long list of stuff to buy for WJ's room but didnt get much in the end.
He keep saying not now and all.. just like what woen said to sheryl.
oh wells. Nevertheless i'm still damn happy!

Sheryl & Woen will be going to malaysia this weekend.
Coming back only next tuesday.. hur hur.
Joan & Kim are in malaysia already.
Dont know when they are coming back.
So just left me and WJ.
No more late night gossips or coffee all the way till tuesday. haiyo.
But i'm looking forward to the surprise that i planned for WJ on wednesday!!
lala.

Ticket to driving

2008-11-28T13:49:00.000+08:00

Finally!
License license license!!!!
PASSED my driving test yesterday. haha.

haha. but with 18 demerits. oh wells.

WJ drove the mercedes to driving school yesterday and luckily i passed.
So that i can get to drive it off.
Went to pick mummy up from the hospital after her check up.
In celebration of my license, daddy treat me to Ah Yat for dinner.
The food wasnt very fantastic. But the oyesters are quite damn good.
Met Woen and Sheryl in the night for drinks.
Went to pick them up and head to TCC.
Wanted to go butter factory initially, but WJ needs to go to sch early today.

Sent WJ to school today. Not exactly send him but yeah.
Oh man i gotta really practice parking outside. cant always ask WJ to help me park.
haha. I still cant believe that i passed.. omg! haha.

Lucky

2008-11-15T01:18:00.000+08:00

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

1st Anniversary

2008-11-14T05:56:00.000+08:00

It's been a year!
Finally i can wish him HAPPY ANNIVERSARY.
and not month-sary. haha.

Baby gotta go to sch today so decided to celebrate it yesterday.
Went Sentosa. (:
Surprising right?? haha.
WJ doesnt like to go to beaches in SG.
But he's willing to go tanning with me.
muahahha.

Baby has flowery pants!

Anniversary gift from baby. Mine's pink & his is purple.

I made him a pouch for the ipod.

Fully handmade. :D

We'll walk through all obstacles together.

Halloween & work photos..

2008-11-13T17:54:00.000+08:00

OLAY REGENERIST PRODUCT LAUNCH

HALLOWEEN

huggies

2008-11-11T01:06:00.000+08:00

OUCH!

Baby says...
" See.. everything is all because of menses. Men should get menses too! So women will feel the shit!!"

Initially i thought he will say.. so men will understand how a woman feels. -_-
Haiyo. What a thing to say.

shall update in a few days time. (:

Work + Manicure + Halloween

2008-10-24T23:03:00.000+08:00

Went to work yesterday.
It was an OLAY event.
They were releasing this new product. OLAY REGENERIST.
Mel & i were kinda like the promoter.
But it's just to bai sui. haha. Like "hua ping" (vase)
haha. We just had to set up the place and like give out the gifts to the people.
There were two sessions.
The first was to host people from Guardian & Watsons.
The second was to host the media.
Editors from CLEO and all.
Cool shit. hahah.
See whether i can get hold of the pictures. (:

I cant wait for the manicure session with the rest of them!
Planning to go bugis for it. Whee.
Gonna do nail art! woohoo.
We're all quite prepared for HALLOWEEN.
But i'm afraid that our outfits might not suit taboo's theme.
Oh wells. Hopefully we wont look stupid. hahah~
excited excited!

Birthday celebrations

2008-10-15T15:03:00.000+08:00

10 October
Novotel 1606.

Reached the hotel bout 5.
Started with the preparation and went swimming after.

The feeling was very different in the pool with the rest of them. (:
Woen was the dolphin, sheryl was the ikan bilis,
i was named the killer whale and joan the great white shark. haha.
Wj & i swam till 10 plus, while the rest went to bathe.

The party finally started when they came back with macs & subway.
There were lotsa food.. nuggets, wedges, wings, bbq meat & CAKE!

The lychee martini cake is superb!!
Though it doesnt seem very major, but it damn yummy.

We made the boys changed into OUR pjs.
I LOVE MY BOY! HE'S SO SPORTING!

Suprisingly woen would wear the sexy nightie that sheryl bought just for him!
He looks like a macho barbie!

Twister was the main game for the night apart from the drinking & posing.

However, the highlight was smt much later.
It really changed the whole party into an exxtremely wild one. hahaa.
Shhh. It's a secret btw the 6 of us! (:

(PLS DO NOT JUDGE THE GUYS FROM THESE PICS. THEY ARE PERFECTLY NORMAL!)

11 October
Pre-birthday Celebration

The plan was to meet EFFER, yan yin, singh hwa & mel at DBL O, 9pm.
I reached there only at bout 11.
The worst thing is.. baby couldnt get in cos he wore berms!!
so irritating! Zouk allows and why not them!!!!

So we decided to move to Taboo. Addie waived cover for us all.

We played dare or double dare.

EFFERS bought me a dildo. :/ haiyo. wth right. tsk!

The night ended with me & mel severely tipsy. (i wont say we're drunk yet)

We were playing human swing!
I went off with baby bout 3 plus.
The journey back to baby's in his car was terrible.
Gotten car sick & puked in a bag.

12 October
My birthday on the lunar calendar

Spent the day with baby's family.
Was secretly trying to make myself puke in the toilets of all the places we went to.
Went home in the night for my sweet noodles.
It's our teochew tradition to eat that on our chinese birthday.
Koti gave me a red packet & a gold key.
Suppose to wait till 21st bt she's just afraid that she might not live to that day.
(you know old people's thinking)

13 October
The actual day.

Surprise
Daddy sent me to school.
Yes. i still have to go sch that day.
Baby joined me in the midst of my lecture.
Then....
The delievery man came in with a bouquet of flowers & a HUGE card.

i was so shocked!! Luckily it's during my break.
The actual plan was the delivery man suppose to walk up to the lecturer,
ask her who's Elizabeth Tan.
And of course i will have to raised up my hand and all.
It'll be super pai seh!!!! OMG.
Nevertheless, the surprise was there. (:
Lecture ended, i carried the card & flowers out.
Everyone was staring! haiyo.
Everyone knows i'm 19 and 13th Oct is my birthday.
Some stranger even wished me when she walked pass.

Pampering
Reached town & had light lunch @ TCC.
The salad was good. (:
Had fun talking to baby bout days when he stalked my blog & all.

Went to BROWHAUS at 2.15pm.
Had my brows shaped.
Headed to far east NAIL BAR.

Baby want me to get my manicure & pedicure done.
The manicurist is quite good. She did a good job!
Baby chose the newest colour for me. A very unique purple.

BEFORE AFTER

i'VE GOT A NAIL ON MY RIGHT THUMB!

Brought baby to SLICE to have shaved ice while waiting for my appointment.

FIRST DATE

After that he wanted to bring me for a haircut & make up.
But make up has to make appointment three days earlier.
So we just settled for haircut.
Wanted to do it at FOX but it seems like it's for old people.
So went to international building to look for one.
XPECTSTUDIO seems fine, more trendy looking.
Baby asked for the leading stylist and this guy Johnson Leong is good.
Both of us havent had a satisfying haircut for a long time..
And to my surprise.. he asked me to be his model for his compeition!
He wants to cut my hair short.
Still considering whether i should help him.
He seems sincere. So most prob i'll ask for a 40% discount on my every haircut in exchange.
I love my hair! The curls are very nicely done.

Dinner
Rushed to Equinox.
The ambience of the place is pretty good.

We ordered half a dozen of oysters and this special set course.

The oysters are extremely extremely fresh!
It's damn sweet. Totally no seafood fishy smell or taste.

The king scallop is damn delicious too!

Too bad there's only one. *drools.

The dessert is the one that has molten choc in the middle.
And when u cut the side of the cake.. the choc will ooze out.

Sinful.

Took a lot of photos. Baby looked super handsome!

I've got good taste eh! hahah.

Went home to cut the cake with my family.

I like this photo a lot. cus baby & i look so sweet.

Received a swarovski necklace from bro & sis in law.

Parents gave me a red packet.

Baby still got me a gift! Ralph Lauren jacket.

I really love the curls!

Baby put in a lot of effort for my birthday.
He stuck 400 over crystals on the card.
He knew i like this kinda bling stuff & even added blue glitter to it.
It took him unearthly hours to do so.
He slept like at 530 / 830am everyday for the past week.
Got some of my friends to write their birthday wishes on the back.
To even liase with them is already a tough job.
The surprise he planned. Much thought was put into it as well.
The theme for the day was PRINCESS-Y.
So he pampered me with the manicure, haircut etc.
Wanna doll me up to the max.
Then dinner on the 70th floor. The view was amazing.
But the best part of the birthday is to be able to spend it with him.
And i wanna spend my every birthday with him for the rest of my life. (:

Special thanks

To those who wrote on the card...

Thank you so much for the note!!

Thanks for taking the effort to write smt for me.

Sheryl, Woen, Joan, Kim....

Thanks for the invitation!

I like the presents a lot too!

The cake is super yummy!

The shot glass definitely come in handy!

Happy birthday eh! :D

Ben & Eld...

Thank you for the Lava lamp!

It's very cool.

You guys still made the effort to come down.

I'm so sorry i cant make it for the dinner.

Gotta celebrate Ashley's birthday.

Shall make it up today,with alas, perhaps?

Mel...

Thanks for helping WJ to get my secondary sch friends.

World greatest bestie!

Yan Yin...

Thank you for being so helpful!

The necklace is very beautiful.

I love it!

Last but not least, THE LOVE MY LIFE..

ANG WEI JIAN

BABY.. THANK YOU SO SO SO SO MUCH!!!!

This has truely been the most memorable birthday so far.

i cant believe u actually went to stick every single crystal on your own on the card.

i know you dont like crystals & glitter.

But you did it just for me.

All 400 of them.

All those nights when u couldnt talk to me because you were rushing it out..

haiyo.

i really aprreciated it.

I know you've spent a lot for me this time round.

All those pampering treatments & dinner.

It's super sweet of you.

You really know what i want. (:

I'm sorry that i've ruined your previous plan.

We'll leave that for another time & plan it tgt yahh?

There's so much i wanna say.. i cant thank u enough.

Guess four words can kinda sum it off..

I LOVE YOU FOREVER. ♥

Special shopping spree

2008-10-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

Yes. as the title says.. SPECIAL SHOPPING SPREE.
and hilarious one too!

Our dearest MELISSA YONG was the highlight of the day!
We went to far east to get some stuff and had shaved ice.
So after sheryl and i had gotten our orders we went back to our table first.

Mel was left at the counter with her wallet.

When she was excitedly looking at her mango shaved ice..
She leaned forward to get the condensed milk..
and ACCIDENTALLY pushed her wallet into the gap btw the fridge counter
& the built-up wall/cabinet.

In other words, she cant really reach for it cus it's too deep.
So in the midst of us enjoying our shaved ice, mel screamed for help.
We went over to help her get it out. but it was impossible.
I tried very hard but could barely reach the edge of the wallet.
So mel tried to tilt me over more and sheryl gave me directions.
Could u imagine how funny we looked???!!
We look like we're performing some gymnastic stunt!
So finally the shopkeeper pass us this hook thing and managed to retrive her wallet.
What a drama we've staged at the shop. so embarrassing!

Our shaved ice!

Enjoying their desserts.

So here's the photo that WJ requested!

Mel keeps talking on the phone!

(irritating jeffery! hahah!)

Suspicious baby week

2008-10-09T01:35:00.000+08:00

The whole of this week wj has been extremely suspicious!
Keep saying he's busy whenever i called him.
Seriously wonder what's he doing!
In the past, he always has his bedtime.
But this whole week.. it seems like he doesnt need to sleep.
He slept at 530am on monday! That's a record.
oh wells.

Meeting mel & sheryl tml. Shopping spree!
haha. extremely special shopping spree..
The girls should know what i mean.
Too bad i can only reveal after this week. haha.
WJ ask me to take a photo with mel if we're going to far east..
Cus he saw us at far east 2 years ago.
But he didnt go up to us and say hi.
So now he wants a photo of us there to ...
to... haiyo. beyond words. (:

Baby, i know it has been hard on you ever since u knew me.
The whole 1.5yrs of secret blog stalking & profile viewings..
Plus 11 mths of commitment, emotions, love & care..
I know i havent been easy to handle at all.
Thank you. (:
Seeing you so busy and tired this whole week really pains my heart know.
i'd rather u nt do anything at all.
Use the time spent & spend it with me.
Havent seen you for days & i'm missing u like crazy.
You mean a lot to me.
Even though i've been niao niao-ing u these days for not giving me the attention..
But you still been patiently tolerating me. .
i love you. ♥

Placido's 21st birthday

2008-10-04T23:32:00.000+08:00

Celebrated Spencer Placido Quek's 21st birthday on Thursday in TABOO.

Was meant to be a surprise..but it turned out to be not so surprising.. haha.
We had lotsa drinks, heart attack, 5 10, heart to heart talk, camwhoring..
In other words.. we had fun!

The five girls had their bit of drinks and started giggling and screaming all over the place.
Luckily it was pretty empty in Taboo that night!

See the flushed faces?

haha. Pardon me sheryl..

The photos in my camera are all taken in Taboo! Shows that i've been giving Addie support eh.

As most of you know.. i've hurt my right thumb! Slammed Wei jian's XC car door shut with my thumb inside..

It's been a few months since the incident and my nail has came off!

That's my nail!

This is my raw thumb.. a bit of nail is growing out though.

Cant wait for next two weeks to come!

Having a hotel party @ Novotel with Sheryl, Woen, Kim & Joan on the 10th.Celebrating the birthdays of the October babies! I have the same birthday as Sheryl!! So coincidental. hahah.

Gonna party with EFFERS & Yan yin on the 11th @ Dbl O. Havent been meeting up with EFFERS ever since jc ended. Wonder how they look like now..

12 - 13 Oct.. i've no idea. it's all up to WJ. hahah.

15 OCt is ASHLEY's birthday! Her very 1st birthday!! She's damn cute and naughty!

woohoo! gonna party for a few days!!!!

Mellie

2008-09-25T16:12:00.000+08:00

Went taboo with mel on saturday to suprise jeff.
Left wj at home! muahahaha.
The whole place was so damn full!
So we decided to sit by the bar so jeff can serve us drinks.
Initially the area in front of us was packed with people, but..
It kinda gradually clear up cus of the obvious reason that we're girls.
Some things happened but we both had fun. Made a few gay friends.
They are quite cute though. Very nice people. :)
So here are some of the photos..

He looked so much like WJ!!!! haha. BUT wj better! hahha.

Hanging on by a thin thread

2008-09-18T13:34:00.001+08:00

~~Faith.~~

But you put on quite a show.

Really had me goin'

But now it's time to go,

Curtain's finally closin'.

That was quite a show.

Very entertainin'.

But it's over now.

Go on and take a bow.

Grab your clothes and get gone.

You better hurry up,

Before the sprinklers come on.

Talkin 'bout, 'Girl I love you, you're the one.'

This just looks like a rerun.

Please. What else is on?

Partying

2008-09-18T13:34:00.000+08:00

The past week had been pretty hectic for me.
Going out late on wednesday, friday and saturday.
I think my liver is going to give way soon. hahah.

Happy and thrice happy are those who enjoy an uninterrupted union,
and whose love, unbroken by any sour complaints shall not dissolve
until the last day of their existence.

Is companionship just what we sought for in a relationship and nothing else?

Have our relationship reached a bottomless pit hole of problems?

Are we what they say.. 3mths, 6mths, 1 yr..?

Enough said, enough seen, enough tears.

Deep breath.

Smile.

Let go.

i still love you.

Chicky Pox

2008-09-08T21:15:00.000+08:00

Down with fever and severe headache. Hopefully I'm not having chicken pox but just normal fever and all. Had contact with Kim Meng who's down with chicken pox for four days and he doesn't know. So he tried to brave through the working hours during the Comex show. He had rashes all over his body but he thought was bed bugs. So if anyone got infected of chicken pox after visiting the Comex show especially the Seagate section.. you know who you got it from. haha! Sheryl is feeling ill as well. I'm vaccinated against chicken pox but does the vaccine really work..? hmmm.

Ashley is getting cuter and cuter each day. She's very intelligent. She knows where's her stomach, head, trumpet light, piano, everyone in the family , clap her hands, gongxi gongxi etc. Just very simple vocabulary. haha. Just taught her how to use the pom poms! hmm.

Sister in law dressed her up ytd. Aint she cute?? That proud face she's giving you whenever you go gaga over her. Haha!

SMILE :D

Attempting to do a somersault.

Young?!

2008-09-04T23:53:00.000+08:00

OKAY. This is ridiculous.
Went for dinner with baby at Grand Corpthorne Waterfront Hotel yesterday night. So since it's a wednesday night, we decided to go get a chop at zouk and maybe we can meet up with Spencer, Jarryl..
Both of us queued for the CITIBANK thing. When it was our turn, obviously we showed the bouncer our IDs and the citibank credit card. HE DIDNT BELIEVE THAT IT WAS MY ID!!!! He asked me for my name and address! WTF! I dont look 18?! And i realised.. he's the one who stopped me the other time when i was there for my post prom party!! I went out of phuture with ivan and when we went back, he stopped us. Not to see our chop but to ask us why we went out and did we bring any dangerous objects into the premises. Ivan just went out to take a puff and wanted me to accompany him. Argh.

The next incident was when i went to Cold Storage with baby to buy chips and a bottle of wine. The cashier wants to check my ID! Seriously i dont know what's wrong with everyone. Checking IDs here and there.

Anyway, here are the happy moments...

Bought a new Casio EX-S10. There's this auto smile shutter (as the name suggests, it takes the photo whenever you smile automatically). Decided to test it out!

Tester No. 1

Tester No. 2

Baby with the delicious oyster @ Cafe Brio's

Yummy desserts! Love the raspberry pie with strawberry ice cream.

Spending the afternoon lazing in bed watchin HK serial with Charmaine Sheh. (only photo with me in specs)

Sneak preview of Madam Ma.

Artisitc photo.

Cars part ll

2008-08-20T18:24:00.000+08:00

Alright. it's been decided. Peugoet 308 turbo.

Colour: Red
Interior: Black leather
Engine type: Twin-scroll turbocharged
Tyres: 17 inch
Acceleration: 9.3secs
Maximum speed: 202km/h
Consumption: 11.4 litre/100km
Transmission type: 4-speed "Tiptronic System Porche" automatic with manual override
Special feature: 0.83m2 glass roof

Went to test drive the car with daddy last saturday.
He was very pleased with it. So i guess now it's just waiting for my license.
Cant's wait. Finished all my subjects already. Hopefully i can get the test date earlier.
Dont have to wait so long..
ahahahaha i'm so excited!! heh.

Cars

2008-08-11T21:29:00.000+08:00

I'm so tempted to change the celica to a GOLF. Fuel consumption is 5.9 litres/100 km. Acceleration, in seconds from 0-80/0-100 kph is 9.4sec. I NEED MY LICENSE QUITE VERY DESPERATELY!! so i would have more bargaining power towards my dad. He's quite alright with the peugeot. But i wanna convince him with the GOLF.

It's quite an ideal car for me. Four doors, which is what mummy wants. Fairly big leg space, which is good for baby. Ultra safe with 6 air bags. "Air bags for driver and front passenger, front passenger’s air bag can be deactivated
Curtain air bag system for front and rear passengers incl. side air bags at the front." ( cars like WRX has only 3, see the difference? )

I dont see why it's not a good buy?! The price is not that steep as well.. it's bout $84K. The peugeot is bout $90K. Save $$ on initial car price and save $$ on fuel.. why not right?! Shall get him down this weekend for a test drive! Since bro is going to HK this wednesday. Shall seize this chance to brainwash my daddy. muaahahahaha.

Above quotes from :
http://www.vwasia.com/publish/vwasia/singapore/en/models/golfs/golf.html

First day of school

2008-08-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

Yes. First day of school. haha. Sounds like a lil kid.
Econs lecture. Attendance is taken in a damn tedious manner. Two persons were stationed outside the lecture hall with a desk, computer and a scanner. You need to produce your student card and they will have to scan it. Was late for about 30 mins. So one of them said " Left the front seats only." I was like.. wth! So i went in. The back rows were almost filled up. Really left the front few seats. However, i was very determined NOT to sit in the front. so i decided to squeeze between two other students. okay.. i didnt exactly squeeze but there was a seat in between them so i just sat in. The girl on my right was kinda friendly. She tried talking to me. I think she's called Tiffiany. At least i made a new friend today. Not so much of a loner after all. haha.

The lecturer is kinda old but i think she's a nice lady. Econs now is really very different from jc's. Much more in depth and demanding. The worse thing is i dont have any tutorials. It's all lectures. It would be much harder to understand concepts and cope. Hopefully there are some study guides that i can refer to.

No school for me all the way till friday. But i'm having 4 hrs of driving tomorrow. Hardcore. hahs. I wanna clear my driving!! So deprived of a licence.

Haha. Something damn funny is happening right now as i'm blogging. WJ is watching this HK serial featuring Charmaine Sheh. And he's laughing like crazy. Like seriously laughing his lungs out. haha. He's damn cute la! hahaha. Charmaine Sheh is so so so so so pretty. haha. That's so random!

School

2008-07-28T20:55:00.000+08:00

Alright. I'll be zapped back into reality real soon.
I'm starting school on 2nd August. Not 4th August! I just realised it last night when i checked the website. It's so irritating. So soon.... Oh wells.
BUT i only have classes on monday, friday and saturday. Three hours each. 8.30am - 11.30am.
Three day study week. SHiok! haha.

It seems damn slack. Okay, it is slack. Gonna stray damn easily. If you ask me if i'm prepared..? NO! so not prepared for a new school term, not to mention a new school even. hur hur. i sound so whiney. But this is how much i dread starting school. Mummy will start nagging again. Need to dig out my notes again. blah blah blah blah... argh.

Driving lessons has been going on well though. Hopefully i can pass by october. Wanna get the car as my birthday present. Heh. Baby says the Peugeot aint a good car. So i guess it'l be the A-class. Hmm. I'm so excited. hahaha.

blah

2008-07-26T14:51:00.000+08:00

hmm. i oughta find something to do.
Life is so boring!

Men & Women

2008-07-25T16:42:00.000+08:00

Q:Why will your man look for other women?

The reason /excuse is.. the woman at home does not know how to soothe the man's ego. He is not treated with due respect. Therefore he thinks that he does not need to tolerate such nonsense from her and so he will go out and seek other women's company.

Then why must women put up with such attitude from their man? Yes, we are aware that we must take care of their ego , not to be too naggy etc. BUT, why cant they soothe our .. emotions for example?! We can one day leave them or seek an alternative company else where too. Wont they be worried as well? Or are they too egoistic to admit?

Even if he cant tolerate with the nonsense, he dont have to seek other women's company. At the end of the day, it's just an excuse. An excuse to make them less guilty or an excuse to boost his ego even more. At the moment when he choose to betray his woman, doesnt it even prick him at all that he'll hurt her so badly? And i said CHOOSE, because i believe that everyone has a choice. He made that choice.

I dont understand why are women always the victim of a ruined relationship. We are always the one to blame. When a woman loves her man so deeply, she's bound to change. She'll not appear to be who you think she is when you guys are dating. Every women has motherly instincts. She'll want to take care of every single detail of her man's life. But she might be too carried away and not realise that she's becoming a nuisance to her man instead.

I guess being honest to each other is the only solution. I know it sounds cliche but it's true. Even if the man did seek alternative company, he should own up and not push the blame to her. It will not appease the woman if she hears this, " Darlin' i'm sorry. I didnt mean to hook up with her. But i really cant tolerate you scolding me for throwing my clothes around, not flushing the toilet after use.. i have my pride and ego. i need some honeyed words as well. i'm sorry. Please forgive me?" COME ON! Just admit that you couldnt resist temptations, you wanna seek the long lost passion and the adrenaline rush you get with you secretly meet her. No matter what is your fault. You made a choice. Not her. All she did was to love you with all her heart.

- i'm not too sure what's your motive of asking me to listen to that podcast. Hopefully it's not what i'm thinking.

Thailand Mission 2008

2008-07-23T17:10:00.000+08:00

Finally a trip together again.

A million dollar photo.

We becames idols.

Trying not to look so afraid.

She's so preetty!!

Maine & i on the tuk-tuk.

Shiok!

Thank god they didnt break the swing.

This is all that we asked for.

Finally an update of my life

2008-01-18T22:54:00.000+08:00

Finally i'm blogging again.
hmm. Been really really really really busy.
Working at Raffles Hospital Clinical Laboratory is really hectic.
Pretty stressful.
Cant afford to make any mistakes cus it concerns a patient's life.

Okay, here's what i do everyday.
I gotta process the urine specimens.
It's called Urinalysis.
First of all.. I have to dip a test strip into the urine bottle.
Next, place the strip in the machine.
The machine will read the results.
Then i will have to charge 1 microlead of urine, using the pipette, into a chamber of a kova slide.
And i will have to view the chamber under the microscope.
I have to look out for RBCs, WBCs, Epithelial cells, Casts, Crystals, Bacteria, Yeast and Spermatozoa.
There's also drug test and pregnancy testing.
We will also help the Microbiology department to do urine culture as well.

Ocasionally, we will receive body fluids.
For example: Semen, Plueral Fluid, Cerebospinal Fluid, Synovial Fluid
For each of the fluid, there's a different processing procedure.

For semen, it's called Seminal Analysis.
We need to measure the volume (ml), pH value, density, 1st hr motility, 2nd hr motility, abnormal forms, viscosity.
I swear it's damn difficult to count the sperms!
They are all swimming here and there.
Cus in order to count the density, we need to put a drop of semen on this slide which has lil squares.
And total, i need to count the sperms in 10 small squares.
They will freaking swim around the whole place.
Sometimes i dont know whether i should be happy for the patient or i should curse him for making my life so difficult.

Plueral Fluids, Cerebospinal Fluids (CSF) , Synovial Fluids needs to be centrifudged and stained with chemicals in order to view it under the microscope.
It's damn fun to do all the staining.
There's 3 stains to do.
Gram Stain, Acid Fast Bacteria and Wright Stain.

I have to process stool too.
It's called Occult Blood, which means hidden blood in your shit.
Basically, we will receive stool cards.
All we need to is to drop the reagent on the card.
If a blue colour appear means it's positive.
Sometimes, we will receive stool bottles.
Therefore we need to smear the stool on the card on our own.
Dont worry.. this is carried out in the fume hood.
So it wont stink.
And definitely, we wont stink after that! *stares at wj's friends*

I'm still learning how to process blood because we have to be very very careful.
We do Dengue Screen, Blood Group, ESR, Malaria Parasite (MP), Full Blood Count, Complete Blood Count..
I only know how to do the thick staining for MP, thin stain, dengue, blood group, ESR.
Viewing the blood specimens under the microscope is still a long way to go.

Have to work 8hrs a day, 6days a week.
Totally no time for myself.

But... i'm going HONGKONG!
With mel, maine and baby! haha.
No parents. Just us! Whee.
Hope it'l be enjoyable.
Mega shopping spree man! woohoo.
i cant wait!!!!!!!!
Can you sense the excitement in me? muahahah.

Teardrops on my guitar

2008-01-13T22:56:00.000+08:00

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough for me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

2nd time invading your blog!

2007-12-29T02:50:00.000+08:00

Hahaha this entry isnt from eliz.

Hmm .. i wrote this the night when u were rather down..

I guess its due to your work load.

Though u have to answer to some people

I really think its way too demanding..

Nevertheless.......

Regardless of your choice..

To stay or leave work

ill be here, there and everywhere :)

and i've BLOGGEEEDDDD!!! hahaha

catch some sleep!

work

2007-12-27T02:12:00.000+08:00

i swear work is super duper tiring!

Month-sary

2007-12-15T02:40:00.000+08:00

Was suppose to date baby out on thurs.
So i planned everything, from dinner to after dinner activities..

Dinner was at Brazil Churrascaria.
It's like a buffet.
But the thing is meat cutters will come arnd to serve the meat to your plate.
The food was fairly alright. The beef slices were damn good.
Service was satisfactory.
BUT there's smt lacking in the ambience.
There wasnt any bit of brazilian mood in the whole restaurant.
oh. We saw Denise Keller there.
She's so freaking skinny!
Baby says her arms look kinda old.. like saggy ah ma's arms.
hmm Her mouth aint as big as it seems on tv. haha.

After dinner we went 150m above ground.

yup. it's the DHL hotair balloon.
i know it's kinda cliche but i'd always wanted to try it.
so yeah.
The view .. nth magnificant.
BUT.. it's a good place for couples! (:
The ride was kinda short, bout 15 mins?

We thought that Fort Canning Park had places to sit arnd so we went there.
To our suprise, there was some korean function there.
It's like a christmas celebrations for all koreans only.
We were left with no choice but to leave the place.
Baby bought strawberry cheese cake from saycheesecake!

Even though he put the cake in the mini fridge in his car but the sugar still kinda melted.
In the end, we decided to head home to eat the cake.
Had the cake with mummy and daddy.
The cake was rather soft and light.
It's not like those typical heavy cheese cake. yums-

Baby bought me a bouquet of flowers.
He requested for tulips so i can add on to my collection of dried tulip petals.
however, the florist "intelligently" added yellow roses to the bouquet! Tsk!

Bought baby a Kenneth Cole watch as a reward cum prezzie. (:

Dont you think he's hand and arm look damn pretty?
Damn you-siew
I fell in love with this watch instantanously!
Went with maine on monday to shop for the watch.
She said she'l fall in love with the guy who will wear this kinda watch!
haha. but too bad. baby's wearing it! :D

Baby's going on his road trip tml.
He'l only be back on wed.
I'm so gonna miss him. sigh.
Wont be able to hear his voice before bedtime.
And the worst thing is i'm starting work on monday!
There'l sure be lotsa stuff i wanna complain to him abt.
His mummy actually invited me to join them..
but i gotta work.. hur hur..
sigh.

a sealed promise-

baby's post

2007-12-11T12:55:00.000+08:00

muhahahaah i've gone beyond tagging!!!!!!

Hate that i love you

2007-10-30T19:47:00.000+08:00

[Rihanna:]
As much as I love you
As much as I need you
And I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile? (No....)

[Ne-Yo:]
But you won't let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did

[Rihanna:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong

[Ne-Yo:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)
I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oh whoa..)
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oooh..)

[Ne-Yo:]
You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]
Said it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I... love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right

[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can't stand how much I need you (yeah..)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so

[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

[Ne-Yo:]
Yeaahhh... Oohh...

[Rihanna:]
As much I love you (as much as I need you)
As much as I need you (oooh..)
As much I love you (oh..)
As much as I need you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you (can't stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so

And I hate that I love you so.. so...

18th Birthday

2007-10-13T16:20:00.000+08:00

I'm finally 18!
I will chiong to get my license after A's.
Hope i will be able to drive before my next birthday!!!

Thank you EFFERS for the wonderful celebration!
The cake is yummy-licious!

Thank you STALKER!
It's really a QUITE VERY marvellous experience!

Thank you MONSTER.
Appreciate the efforts put in.
But things just dont turn out the way we want it to.

Many thanks to those who wished me happy birthday!
Glad that most of you remembered.

Most importantly..
Mummy and Daddy!!
You guys were really sweet.
Mummy cooked sweet noodles for me!
and she used food dye to write words on the eggs, must have had a hard time doing that.
Daddy booked the restaurant for tonight's celebration.

On the whole, i'm really happy to have these people arnd for my birthday. (:
Photos will be uploaded after tonight's celebration!

Goodbye - Janice Wei
i can see the pain living in your eyes.
And i know how hard you try.
You deserve to have so much more.
i can feel your heart and i smypathize.
And i'l never criticize. All you've ever meant to my life.

I dont want to let you down.
I dont want to lead you on.
I dont want to hold you back.
From where you might belong.

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised.
I just cant live a lie anymore.
I would rather hurt myself ,
Than to ever make you cry.
There's nothing left to say but good-bye.

You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure i'm worthy of.
Losing you is painful to me.

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised.
I just cant live a lie anymore.
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry.
There's nothing left to try.
Though it gonna hurt us both.
There's no other way than to say good-bye.

I'd rather

2007-09-15T18:47:00.000+08:00

I thought sometime alone
Was what we really needed
You said this time would hurt more than it helps
But I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end of a beautiful story
And so I left the one I loved at home to be alone (alone)
And I tried to find out if this one thing is true
That I'm nothing without you
I know better now
And I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoo-oo-oo-oo yeah

And then I met someone
And thought she could replace you
We got a long just fine
We wasted time because she was not you
We had a lot of fun
Though we knew we were faking
Love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies
So I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
That I'm nothing without you
I know better now
And I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart who holds my heart

I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you
I can only prove the things I say with time, please be mine

I'd rather have bad times with (please be mine) you,than good times with someone else (I know)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (anytime),than safe and warm by myself (so sure baby)
I'd rather have hard times together,than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart (my heart)

I'd rather have bad times with you (surely),than good times with someone else (surely)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (oh yeah),than safe and warm by myself (all by myself)
I'd rather have hard times together,than to have it easy apart (you know it)
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoooo.....who holds my heart

Expectations

2007-09-15T16:59:00.000+08:00

He used to be like this when you know him.
Problems arises only when you expect him to change.

- The Simpsons

How true.

When there's expectations, there's disappointments.

To that guy

2007-09-10T16:45:00.000+08:00

To the guy that said,"You're beautiful."

To the guy that was never too busy to travel distances to see her.

To the guy that gives chocolates in the middle of the night.

To the guy that delivers pancakes to her at 7am.

To the guy that has given her flowers.

To the guy that said he would die for her.

To the guy that did what she wanted to do.

To the guy that teared in front of her.

To the guy that she cried in front of.

To the guy that holds hands with her.

To the guy that kisses her with meaning.

To the guy that hugs her when she's sad.

To the guy that hugs her for no reason at all.

To the guy that would give his jacket up for her.

To the guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.

To the guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.

To the guy that would give up his seat.

To the guy that just wants to cuddle her.

To the guy that reassured her that she is beautiful no matter what.

To the guy who told her his secrets.

To the guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.

To the guy that thought she could be the one.

To the guy that believed in her dreams.

To the guy that would laugh with her and not at her.

To the guy that gave her his heart.

-9.1215.22.5.21.25.21.18

Ten signs you love someone

2007-08-26T16:30:00.000+08:00

10 signs to show you love someone

TEN:
You feel shy whenever they're around.

NINE:
You smile when you hear their voice.

EIGHT:
When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see him/her.

SIX:
They're all you think about.

FIVE:
You realize you're always smiling whenyou're looking at them.

FOUR:
You would do anything for them, just to see them.

THREE:
While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time.

TWO:
You were so busy thinking about that person, you didnt notice number seven was missing

ONE:
You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself.

It's not what he did, but it's what he didnt.

Alex To

2007-08-21T22:36:00.001+08:00

Whoever can sing Alex To's 嫁给我 (Jia Ge Wo), i will marry him straightaway.
haha. i'm addicted to that song.

2007-08-17T21:16:00.000+08:00

EFFERS-
friends for life

Effers album updated!

Your email

2007-08-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

"i put it in my left shirt pocket every night i sleep so u will be closer to my heart."

i smiled-

Tonight

2007-08-13T23:42:00.000+08:00

I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having youhere now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look upand know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you SAT AND told me about your Jesus
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here...

I sing,
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss youI can just look upand know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"

I sing,
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss youI can just look upand know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"

sturggling very hard to hang on

2007-07-29T21:58:00.000+08:00

STRESSED

hanging on a thin thread-

2007-07-09T19:16:00.000+08:00

Just read someone's blog.
argh. i dont understand who in this world types like this:

euu make me hate euu...becos of euu...when i c euu i wanna puke....becos of euu...i became jealous....becos of euu...i wish to die...becos of euu...i gave up on him....becos of euu....i began ...

omg. i almost pulled all of my hair out. seriously.
eeks. no offence but it's horrible.
oh wells.

Maine came back on Friday.
Had bbq at her house .
Managed to dig out some secrets from mel. heh.
oh. i was tipsy that night.
Played 5, 10, 15 with alas with shots of vodka raspberry.
and i drank jolly shandy with it.
That explains why i got tipsy.
I think i look damn stupid. was giggling and screaming.
Cant believe i did that. Throw face!!!

Eldric drove us out to buy drinks.
Seriously my life was in danger.
He made a super sharp U-turn when a taxi was approaching.
Thank god nothing happened to us. phew.

i know you will keep to your promises..

and that's all i ask for.

2007-07-08T16:25:00.001+08:00

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever I know we were
Yeah, yeah

And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

sch

2007-07-04T18:46:00.000+08:00

It's the second week of sch.
I can feel the stress level building up. bit by bit engulfing all of us.
oh wells.

MAINE'S COMING BACK ON FRI!!!!
oh man i cant wait! miss her loads.
Wanna let her see the two happy faces. *winks
but the gathering is brought forward to friday.
not sure whether the other happy face can make it. haha.
But not to worry. you'l be able to see that face no matter what.
Probably we'l go kbox on saturday? how does that sound?
oh man oh man. cant wait!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you friend

2007-07-01T23:00:00.001+08:00

Thank you friend. (:

Just for you

2007-07-01T14:51:00.000+08:00

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself instead of calamity
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my lifeIts time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be my valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself instead of calamity
Peace, Serenity

6 days at sea, 1 day on land.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.-

Thank you friend.

2007-07-01T01:22:00.000+08:00

Thank you friend (:

update update update

2007-06-19T23:39:00.000+08:00

alrighty. i guess it's time to blog something down.
hmmm. where should i start..
So so so many things happened recently.
Been spending most of my time in the hospital.

First was my granny. She went under the knife to get some lump outta her right side of her face.
Next was my GREAT GRANDMA (in short ggm). She 100 years old. ONE CENTURY old.
Amazing isnt it?! haha. She had some flu and slight fever.
So the family doc wants us to admit to her to the hospital in case she's down with pneumonia.
Then, my dad. He was suppose to go for some scan and ended up having to do balloon angrioplasty.
3 out of 5 of his arteries are blocked. So the doc performed the procedure to smooth the blockage.
They manage to open 2 and a half. He gotta eat 7 types of medicine a day!
Poor daddy. sigh.
Now, it's my aunt. She's diagnose with colon cancer. 5 cm of her large intestine is cut off. She's resting at home now but she's extremely weak. 38kg only. can you imagine that?!
I'm having my doc appointment tml. hope my back's getting better.
If not i need to go for surgery. It'l be damn troublesome.
I wont be able to walk for months and i gotta lie on my tummy for the whole day.
Cant even get up to go toilet on my own. Gotta put some tube or i might need to wear pampers. EEKS!
Dont want that day to come. *shivers

Shall blog bout smt happier.
hmmm. Celebrated yao and mel's birthday.
i've already uploaded all the photos for both celebrations.

Yao was suppose to go on the reverse bungy as a birthday dare.
but she didnt cus it's quite scary and kinda ex. 45 bucks per person.

And as usual.. i came up with exciting games for mel's party. *evil grin
seriously, i hope maine and mel wont take their revenge.

Got her a really SEXY lingerie!!

Feeling kinda weird these days.
Dont really know how to explain how i feel.
i've been indecisive. i know i shouldnt rush into things.
That's why i'm taking such a long time to decide.
but i've been having mixed feelings.
One moment i have this urge to agree, and the next moment i dont.
i guess what's holding me back is the commitment and there's certain things i just cant forget.
i dont want history to keep repeating itself.
i'm sick and tired of just a few months.
It seems better to settle down. But on the other hand, being free is equally attractive.
oh wells. Shall let time to decide..

mel's 18th birthday

2007-06-12T17:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTIE!

Pictures will be uploaded soon. Check it out!

i wanna see mel in her sexy lingerie that we bought her!!!!!

2007-05-02T18:40:00.000+08:00

Waking up I see that everything is OK
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]
This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

Feng lin

2007-04-23T16:22:00.000+08:00

FENG LIN!! GET WELL SOON!

Today's a relatively quiet day for 06S05.
Many people were absent.
Feng Lin was admitted to the hospital.
She fainted a few times ytd and had rashes all over.
Poor thing. It must have been really bad for her.

Went to CGH to visit her. She looks alright.
Seriously hope she's okay.
The docs couldnt find anything wrong with her.
she can discharge from the hospital today! yay!
one more person to accompany me during P.E.
not a good thing though.

Videos

2007-04-21T14:16:00.000+08:00

I'm just trying this out.
Not sure whether it works.

Updates

2007-04-21T12:23:00.000+08:00

Went for physio therapy in CGH.
My therapist had to twist me arnd and stretch my back and all.
She cracked my back ytd. Damn comfy. woohoo~
She sent me for some contraction stretch and heat therapy.
The stretch made my back feel so tired but the heat therapy is marvellous.
i fell alseep everytime when i had that therapy.

My bro booked a SGH appointment for me too.
Went yesterday. waited in the hospital for 3hrs just too see the doc for barely 15mins.
i was the last patient to leave the clinic. can you imagine that?!
They compensated us with two $2 Kopitiam vouchers.
Well even though it's kinda cheapo, but it's the thought that counts.
The doc is sending me for Magnetic Resonance Imaging (MRI)!!! so scary!
He's afraid that i might have a slip disc and some other complications.

He checked the data base, and realised that i went to CGH beforehand.
He saw the name of the doc in CGH and said " Paul Tng. *sniggers*"
i was kinda shocked by that reaction.
I told him i went to CGH cus my P.E teacher recommended and he was like..
"She recommended you to CGH?! Oh, so do i need to write a letter to thank her or smt?"
*drops jaw* He's trying to be sarcastic or what? What a snob!
Oh wells. Doctors can be kinda essentric with the unreadable handwritings and all.
The worst thing is he didnt tick which kinda physiotherapy he wants be to go for on the piece of paper!
My mum had to go down and look for him today to get him to indicated which therapy i need.

Oh man. I had to go for physiotherapy, MRI and x-rays.
All my cells are dying.. after all the scans i had to do. hur hur.
I dont think i'm going back to CGH anymore.
Feel so bad cus my therapist is really good.
She's very caring and all. sigh.
oh wells. My parents want SGH. cant help it.

Had the EDIBLE GLASS workshop on Thurs.
It's actually candy making, just that the candy shatters like glass. hah.
The funny thing was.. the lab instructer is Mr Wong.
He's Sarah's favourite teacher. She loves him to bits.
So in order for Sarah to get a good view of him, we reported at the lab super early.
Managed to get the front table. Full view and closest contact. haha.
Took lotsa photos of Sarah and Mr Wong tgt.
She gotta thank us for it man.
Yao helped to take the photo secretly and i had to try means and ways to move away from the picture.
i had to move away soooo discreetly in order not to make it too obvious.

What a sweet couple. awww~

The first batch of candy we made taste like bittergourd.
The sugar caramelised and it taste so bitter!

The second batch was so so so much better.
It was so freaking sweet! yums-

Sugar boiling.

Stirring the misture.

Spreading the oil.

Us with the bitter candy.

Group photo with Mr Wong. Notice the close contact? hahs.

We gave the first batch to the guys the next day.
Their expression was damn funny.
Some of them took one lick, some put the whole piece into their mouth.
Xav, Dan and Hend wanted to comment that it was disgusting but they didnt dare until Melv eewed damn loudly.
Then they started saying it sucks.
When we told them it was bittergourd flavour they exactly believed it. So dumb! haha.

More photos of the workshop has been uploaded to EFFERS album!

Spina Bifida

2007-04-09T22:09:00.000+08:00

RADIOLOGICAL REPORT

Clinical History: Low Back Pain

Radiographs of the Lumbosacra spine (AP and Lateral views)

Findings:
There is mild scoliosis of the lumbar spine wih convexity to the left. There is loss of normal lordosis. The spine is otherwise normal in alignment. Spina bifida is noted at S1 level. The vertebrae and intervertebral disc space are normal. There is no prevertebral or paravertebral soft tissue abnormality. The sacroiliac joints are normal.

Reported by: Dr. Shalini Menon, MD

What Is Spina Bifida?

Someone born with spina bifida has an opening in the spine. A healthy spine is closed to protect the spinal cord, a bundle of nerves that sends messages back and forth between your brain and the rest of your body. The messages tell your muscles to move so you can kick a soccer ball or pick up a pencil. The messages also tell you about sensations on your skin, so you know to pull your hand away from a hot pot.

When a baby is growing inside its mother, the spine and spinal cord are developing. But sometimes part of the spinal cord and spine don't grow the way they should, leaving an opening where the spinal cord may protrude outside the body. When this happens, a baby is born with spina bifida, a term that means "split or open spine."
Because of the opening in the spine, the nerves of the spinal cord may be damaged. A spinal cord that's damaged may not be able to do the important job of getting messages to and from the brain. Usually when your brain says "kick the ball," the nerves of your spinal cord carry that message that tells your leg to kick.
These messages may not be able to get through if a person has spina bifida. The person may not be able to move their muscles the way other people do. This is called paralysis (say: puh-ra-luh-sis), which means a person can't move some muscles or to feel things on some parts of the body.

What Are the Different Types of Spina Bifida?

One kind of spina bifida can go unnoticed. With spina bifida occulta (say: uh-kul-tuh), the opening in the person's back is covered by muscle and skin and the spinal cord is usually normal. There may be some problems with the spine, or there may be no problems at all.

Another type of spina bifida is called meningocele (say: meh-nin-jo-seel). This involves the meninges, the membranes that cover the brain and spinal cord. Meningocele is the name used when just the meninges - no nerves - push through the opening in the vertebrae. The meninges form a fluid-filled sac that is usually covered with skin. The spinal cord is normal and a person with a meningocele usually has no problems. A person with meningocele will need surgery to prevent any nerve damage later.

When most people talk about spina bifida, though, they mean myelomeningocele (say: my-uh-low-meh-nin-jo-seel), from words meaning "spine" and "swelling." In this type, the baby is born with a sac protruding from the opening in the spine. This sac contains nerves and part of the spinal cord. About one in 1,000 babies born in the United States have this type of spina bifida.

Because the spinal cord hasn't developed normally and some nerves may have been damaged, a person with myelomeningocele will have some paralysis, as well as a loss of feeling in their legs. The amount of paralysis will vary, depending on where the opening is on the back. The lower down the back the opening is, the fewer nerves are affected and the less paralysis there is. This is why some kids with spina bifida can walk and some can't. To help them get around, kids might use crutches, leg braces, or wheelchairs.

Why Do Kids Have Spina Bifida?

No one is really sure why some kids are born with spina bifida, but doctors and scientists have found some possible reasons. They've learned that folic (say: foh-lik) acid is very important, especially when a baby is growing inside its mother. Folic acid is one of the B vitamins found in foods like broccoli, spinach, egg yolks, and oranges. If a woman doesn't have enough folic acid in her diet while she's pregnant, she may be more likely to have a baby with spina bifida. Luckily, special vitamins containing folic acid are available for pregnant women.A woman who has a high fever early in her pregnancy also may be at higher risk of having a baby who has spina bifida. Scientists are also studying the roles that genes, certain chemicals, and medicines might play in causing spina bifida.

http://www.kidshealth.org/kid/health_problems/bone/spina_bifida.html

What is Spina Bifida?

Spina bifida (SB) is a neural tube defect (a disorder involving incomplete development of the brain, spinal cord, and/or their protective coverings) caused by the failure of the fetus's spine to close properly during the first month of pregnancy. Infants born with SB sometimes have an open lesion on their spine where significant damage to the nerves and spinal cord has occurred. Although the spinal opening can be surgically repaired shortly after birth, the nerve damage is permanent, resulting in varying degrees of paralysis of the lower limbs. Even when there is no lesion present there may be improperly formed or missing vertebrae and accompanying nerve damage. In addition to physical and mobility difficulties, most individuals have some form of learning disability. The three most common types of SB are: myelomeningocele, the severest form, in which the spinal cord and its protective covering (the meninges) protrude from an opening in the spine; meningocele in which the spinal cord develops normally but the meninges protrude from a spinal opening; and occulta, the mildest form, in which one or more vertebrae are malformed and covered by a layer of skin. SB may also cause bowel and bladder complications, and many children with SB have hydrocephalus (excessive accumulation of cerebrospinal fluid in the brain).

Is there any treatment?

There is no cure for SB because the nerve tissue cannot be replaced or repaired. Treatment for the variety of effects of SB may include surgery, medication, and physiotherapy. Many individuals with SB will need assistive devices such as braces, crutches, or wheelchairs. Ongoing therapy, medical care, and/or surgical treatments may be necessary to prevent and manage complications throughout the individual's life. Surgery to close the newborn's spinal opening is generally performed within 24 hours after birth to minimize the risk of infection and to preserve existing function in the spinal cord.

http://www.ninds.nih.gov/disorders/spina_bifida/spina_bifida.htm

pictures

2007-03-31T01:14:00.000+08:00

more pictures to be uploaded. (:

Sch

2007-03-30T22:00:00.000+08:00

This week is indeed an extremely tiring week.
EFFERS should know why. haha.
i shall sow the ribbon on my bag so some people cant take it and hide it in his pockets!
and.. i will chain my bag, put lotsa locks. *stares*
although it can get really tiring, but it's a good way to relieve stress and to workout.
you seriously need lotsa energy to counter any spring attacks. Right girls? haha.
we should bring more barang barangs to school.
Arm ourselves and prepare to declare war anytime.

We had our songfest competition.
Rubbish i tell you. execpt for a few.
shahridah, ahsri, wanyu & kin lung..
the rest.. forget it.
They are either going out of pitch the whole time.
or doing some corny actions.
oh please. spare me!

There's a good piece of news.
i can stay in J2. woohoo~
like finally. after all the sleepless nights.
phew. gotta mug hard this yr. (:

uploaded pictures! EFFERS go view it!

Sch..

2007-03-20T20:52:00.000+08:00

It's the second day of sch term.
energy draining as usual.
Lotsa SPA trial, faculty tests coming up.
ah wells.
That's my life. :(

i realise some people have reeaallly weird pick up lines.
This is what i mean:

"hey babe,the sun's getting hot.but ya even more glaring hot than the sun.may i have this honour to busk under ur hotness?"

":D waves wildly* hello :p"

"hey there! sorry for the randomness.. well i'll go straight to the point.. i am having my commissioning ball on the 15th of december and i need a date..care to help me out pls?? add me at ~~willard_low@hotmail.com~~ or just msg me at 9XX0XXX3..later!=)"

"oh gosh... u r realli like my dream babe... cant believe someone as pretty as u realli exist :) can i buy u a coffee n b ur fren? plssee..... pretty.... plseee..... "

"Hi My name is Muffin. I am a 17 yar old bi female. I just opened my myspace page and am looking for friends to chat and trade pics with. Please add me as a friend. "

No offence. just find it funny. *bares teeth*
really wonder how many SIMILAR msges these people sent out everyday?
copy and paste the same msg whenever they view a profile.

To this particular person called SHAWN,
Do not msg me such things again.
you DISGUST me!

From the heart

2007-03-18T23:24:00.000+08:00

I know you've heard these words A hundred other times before
And you've been hurt and so
Your heart has chose to close the door
Love broke your heart
And brought you lies

Look in my eyes
You'll see a love that's deep and true
Tender and strong
And all for you
You can trust this love
Honest that's the honest truth

From my heart
I'm giving you everything(everything)
From my heart
I promise you that I'll be there(I'll be there to love you)
From the soul
I'm showing you all I feel(all I feel is..)
From my heart
From the heart...

I will protect you
And respect you
And be all you need
And when you reach for love
You only need to reach for me
These arms will never let you down

They're staying around
I'll help you through every storm
I'll keep you safe
I'll keep you warm
And you'll have no doubt
You're the one I'm living for

I'll provide the love you need
Just trust my touch
Believe in me I'll never make you cry
Giving all I got with..all I've got is...

Sch reopens

2007-03-18T17:56:00.000+08:00

The holidays are over.
Time to start mugging.
blah-

Was suppose to have a mini gathering at my hse on Sat.
Many people cant make it.
having block test and all.
Wanted to have some fun before sch reopens.
but oh wells.

idontwannagoschool ~

I HATE YOUU

2007-03-13T15:09:00.000+08:00

i'm seriously gonna hate youu for my whole entire life.
i'm telling you this for the last time.
LEAVE ME ALONE! argh-

Anyone who read this entry..
dont ask me bout anything!
i'm fucking pissed.

crashing my hse

2007-03-13T13:28:00.000+08:00

Part of EFFERS came my hse ytd.
Cooked spag for them.
They didnt believe that i can cook!
but anyway, it's delicious right?!

Suppose to do econs project. SUPPOSE.
ended up playing. as usual.
Started off with make up sessions.
HENDRO & XAVIER are really very pretty.
They can be potential bapohs.
Drew on their faces. wahaha. so fun!

puting peel-off mask for them after removing their make-up.

Kawaii~ he looks like a present.

Pluck their eyebrows too! see that constipated face? hahs-

JANE & YAO were like busy trying on the mascara too.
MELVIN played icy towers on my com. keeping breaking the records.humpf.

Later the guys somehow got tangled tgt.
and they.. erm.

You wouldnt want to know what they did to each other. eeks!

We played black jack.
bet on drinks.
i drank FOUR cups. super bloated.
we switched to another game.
it's sumthing like zhong ji mi ma.
anyone who hits on the number on the dice will have to drink sumthing horrible.
There's : wintermellon juice with chilli sauce , peach vodka , can wine.
Jane hit the number 4 times?
Hendro thrice. Melv twice.
Yao, xav and me once.
jane got a lil high after drinking vodka and wine. haha.

All of us had fun. i hope. haha.
actually we should have more slack sessions.
mb after A's.

NTU economics talk

2007-03-10T18:48:00.000+08:00

Went for the NTU Economics Talk today.
Jane and i volunteered ourselves.
guess we were possessed that day.
We just want our SGC to look nicer i suppose.
but anyways, it was SUPER BORING!
Listen to lectures after lectures.
argh.

Lee Kong Chian LT

Boring lecturers.

This kept me awake throughout lectures.

Took this picture out of boredom. PUMA vs NIKE.

Oh! met many cedarians there too.
Hui qi, Yumin, Manel, Janica, Jie Ling, Pei Qi, Shi Qi...
haha. Was damn suprised to see them.

It's been long since i took a photo with JAN.

Miss the days in cedar.. bullying naima!

As blur as ever.

For some reason, this pic look as if it's edited.

Ms Alicia Key.
She went along with us. darn friendly. (:

We all wanted to leave during the lunch break.
in the end we decided to be nice and stay on.
Initially there were 20+ ppl.
At 3.10pm, there were only 7 ppl left.
How pathetic!
i'm NOT gonna attend anymore of such talks.

I WANT THIS PHONE!

The diva has arrived
With an external screen that also acts like a make-up mirror, the E500 helps you look just the part, be it shopping or clubbing, thanks to its personal touch. Every inch a phone designed for the ladies, its feminine curves, embossed leather accents, unique eye-catching patterns add spice and style to your everyday life. Guaranteed to turn heads, its shades of mocha, dark beige and sandy gold-brown, along with the jewel-like trim of the embedded camera form ready-made talking points. Get ready to be the life of the party.

Every girl's darling
Lightweight in design yet heavy on the functionality, the E500 is the perfect muse for the modern woman. It comes with fun yet relevant lifestyle applications to help you look great and even keep your shopping in check.

Makeover Kit
Take a picture of yourself, add a 'virtual' dash of lipstick, a touch of blusher viola! You've got your makeover on the go.

Fragrance Type
What's your mood for the day? Your E500 can advise on the type of perfume to have on.

Bio-Rhythm
Schedule important meetings during the highs of your intellectual cycle. To discover what your bio-rhythm is, simply enter your date of birth.

Height & Weight Ratio
How healthy are you? Key in your height and weight and the ratio will give you a good indication.

Calories
Should you have that croissant with your latte? What is the fat content? Consult the calorie counter in your E500.

Pink Schedule
Your E500 will be a guardian of your intimate details, such as your period cycle.

Shopping List
Have you been losing your paper shopping lists? The shopping list on E500 will definitely be handy.

BUT CHAM SOON WAH XAVIER GOT IT ALREADY! argh-

link: http://sg.samsungmobile.com/en/phone/phone_view/phone_feature.jsp?p_pfid_1=SGH-E500

5 Mar - 9 Mar

2007-03-09T14:54:00.000+08:00

7 Mar

Forced the guys to do dares.
Xav did it. it wasnt really funny.
He's suppose to go up to kim and tell her that he's her fan and wants her autograph.
He was super nervous. heart beating so fast!
In the end we decided to spare him.
He just have to go up to some random J1 girl and ask for her signature.

8 Mar

Had chem spa trial and chem supp test.
Was trying to mug in during the breaks.
but we all failed to do so.
we were busy chatting and drawing away.
totally bored by organics.

Cam whoring

My master piece

Pirated version by xav

Climbing out!

oops!

Had videos of them dancing as well.
cant upload them here. haha.
hilarious bunch of people. tsk tsk.
Thanks guys for cheering me up.
really appreciate that.
what abt more dares? heh.

My newest fetish

2007-03-05T23:27:00.000+08:00

my love-

i have a fetish for you-

fireworks

2007-03-04T22:45:00.000+08:00

Saw the fire works display from my hse.
Was mesmerised by the colourful sparkles.

It was really beautiful.
but, it lasted for only a few minutes.

Why do people indulge in short spans of happiness?
After barely a few minutes, reality will still set in.
Would you rather have eternity..
or allow yourself to bask in that teeny weeny bit of bliss?

someone like me

2007-03-04T16:26:00.000+08:00

Dont let your head rule your heart
Dont let your world be torn apart
Dont keep it all to yourself

Just let all your emotions run free with someone like me

That's the way it should be

i've given up.

It was a mistake from the very start.

career fair

2007-03-04T01:20:00.000+08:00

Had econs faculty test today.
It sucks.
Dont think i will do well.

Went out with the usual four.
Hendro abandoned us halfway.
Ate in NEWYORK NEWYORK.

The spag canabora is damn good. -yums.
super creamy. yeah i know sinful.
the interior design is freaking cool.
like the small lil booths.
They have a pool table too.
The guys had a game.

Career fair at Suntec.
nth much. Quite small though.
We left the place after we walked one round.

Went to catch a movie. ROCKY BALBOA.
didnt want to watch that at first.
but it was the only movie that fits the timing.
The show's boring except for the fighting scene.
i fell asleep!!
The whole cinema barely had anybody.
so we all moved to the couple seats.
Jane & i, Melv & Xav.
The seats are extremely comfy.
Xav fell down twice in the cinema. how clumsy.

No one's angel

2007-02-26T23:43:00.001+08:00

i guess i'm no longer your angel.
i'm sorry..
No one's angel from now on.

i know i'v been cruel to you all this while.
Making you live through so much hurt and pain for the past two weeks.
I chose to ignore you cus i know we can nv be tgt.
Not now. not in the future.
There are so many issues stuck btw us.
I'm tired of overcoming them time and again.
and you clearly know that once i've shut myself, it's difficult to open up again.

You'l find your angel. your 专属天使.
yours and only yours.
i'm just a passer-by.
As time goes by, i'l be forgotten.

I know i cant make it up to you.
i might even regret my decision today.
but since i've chosen this, i'l just have to stick to it.
there's no turning back.
and i wont.

Thank you for all the memories.
You'l always be someone dear to me.
Hope you'l be able to move on.
Today shall mark the end of us.
Take care.

maturity

2007-02-25T20:51:00.000+08:00

i'm beginning to wonder..

Are the two of them mature enough to have a child now?

He told her that she's not mature enough to be a mother.

Not responsible to herself and her baby.

But what abt him?

I guess he aint as mature as well.

Throwing tantrums when the food is not ready?

The food is not what his wife wants.

Come on. If you're really so anxious bout ur wife employ a cook specially to cook for her 24/7.

Or you can do the job.

Why blame mum for not cooking, or the food's not suitable..?

She's ur wife. NOT ours.

Dont complain. Dont say that having a child is a burden to you or smt.

Consider her feelings.

If you think having a child is so troublesome, what abt her?

Getting dizzy spells, muscle cramps, nausea etc.

She's bearing all the pain.

All you can do is to make her happy. THAT'S ALL.

Dont make each and everyone of us unhappy just because she doesnt listen to you?

Shouting at us doesnt mean you can solve the problem.

She drank 100 plus in the morning instead of the milk is her choice.

We didnt force her to drink it, or forbid her to drink milk.

Problem btw you guys should be settled privately.

Why implicate others?

Blame yourselves for not planning ahead.

If you think you guys arent ready to have any children now then why dont take precautionary measures?

Blaming others is the worst.

This shows how childish you people are.

Remember, NO ONE force you guys into doing anything.

Why do you always have to ruin our dinner?

How many times must i say not to bring such matters to the dinner table?!

Have some respect for the person who prepared the meal.

Last thing i'm gonna do for the family..

Curse myself.

Let my dying wish be the strength to hold this family together.

i'l just be a self-centered kid.

2007-02-24T21:13:00.000+08:00

Dont wanna put in so much effort to make everyone happy.

I'l just be a self-centered kid.

just like every other teen who doesnt care bout the family.

dont see the point of trying to please each and everyone of them.

doing so much, being sensitive to their feelings.

guess i'm too foolish to think they really treat me as their own.

treating me nice when you guys needed me.

need me to be your slave, your maid.

That's it.

Now it's your turn to please me.

CNY

2007-02-19T02:21:00.000+08:00

Maine flew off on the 12th.
Went to send her off.
Was trying very hard to hold back those tears.
Maine's Castz5 couldnt.
They were all crying and hugging each other.
Trying to flood T1.
Mel and i had to turn away, so afraid to let those tears roll down our cheeks.
One person short. ?.E.M
Hope she's getting on with life there. Gonna miss her.

Valentine's Day.
Didnt get smt special for EFFERS.
Sorry! but at least i got you guys smt. not like some one. *Stares at HENDRO

Special thanks to:

HUIQI and YUMIN for the flowers you guys got people to deliver over.
ELVIS.. the white rose amongst the reds.
SARAH.. the handy lil pink mirror.
JANE.. the cute tortoise keychain.
YAO.. the sweets and chocs. i want the winnie the pooh wrapper!!
MELV.. rum & raisin and hazel nut chocs. yums-
DAN.. a whole bar of tobolone dark choc.
XAV.. jelly chocs. They are really fun to play with.
*did i miss out anyone?

Happy Lunar New Year!!

Collect more angpaos.. and share it with me!

*to be continued..

update

2007-02-11T00:01:00.000+08:00

It's been long since i've updated my blog.
so i've decided to revive it and change a new template.
Many things happened recently.

Germaine's leaving for Australia to study.
damn sad.
Gonna miss her like crazy.
Held a farewell party for her on 3rd Feb.
I came up with the games.. and i ended up getting the most dares!
retributions i tell you.
here's some sneak peeks of the party..

Maine's leaving this monday.
3pm flight. gonna send her off.
hope i can hold back those tears.
dont wanna get emotional.
one less person to hang out and talk to.
Mel better not MIA.
gonna bite her head off if she does so.

Celebrated my GREAT grandma's birthday on the 4th.
She's 99 years old.
Amazing isnt it?
She uberly cute.
she cant really hear and see well, so we've gotta talk a lil louder.

Went CNB on 7th for sch learning journey.
Interesting. but no photos allowed. :(
oh wells. but we had some fun before that.
Went to hide hendro's bag and file in the girls toilet.
Ended up having my bag hid in the boys toilet as well.
argh. have to go in and get it myself.
but of course that mean hendro wouldnt allow me to.

Instead of giving back to me, the boys used my bag to play rugby.
Irritating. so here's the revenge...

pls forward this photo to as many people as possible. hahs!

Had our sch's annual road run on the 9th, friday.
yao, jane and sarah and i didnt have to run cus we volunteered to do duty.
slackers. what do you expect?
I had to pass the number cards to the teachers at the finishing line.
it's fun but i swear it's kinda disgusting.
some of their hands are kinda sweaty. eeks!
we spent at most 30mins doing duty and slacked throughout the whole event.

Adora came in 2nd for the the competitive girls event.
Elvis was 3rd!
Xav was top 10 for hawk.
He wore this freaking short FBT shorts.

Took a class photo with Ms Liu.
i think all of us look great.

Was suppose to go out as a group with, effers.
Hendro and daniel went to the gym.
Jian hui went home. Sarah went out with her friend.
Left jane, yao, xav, melv and me.
Ate at pasta mania in ps.
i said smt damn funny and all of us burst out laughing.
i thought the few strands of haird on xav's shoulders are those fallen off.
but it turned out to be hair growing out from there.
i'm so sorry xav.. haha.

Went to play pool after that.
Xav didnt bring his belt along so his jeans are kinda loose.
Check this out!

Slacked at starbucks while waiting for alas.

Made melv and xav act gay.

We played spin the bottle and whoever the bottle neck points to gotta do smt stupid.
Here's what we did..

lucky jane didnt get any. humpf.

Went for another farewell dinner for maine.
It's from the adults.
They wanna treat her to dinner.
We had it at Garuda.
The food was kinda spicy. but it's yummy-lious.

disguise

2007-02-10T01:03:00.000+08:00

Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside
You will never measure up, to those people you
Must be strong, can't show them that you're weak
Have you ever told someone something T
hat's far from the truth
Let them know that you're okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have

Have you ever seen your face,
In a mirror there's a smile
But inside you're just a mess,
You feel far from good
Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand

Have you ever had this wish, of being
Somewhere else
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too

unappreciated

2006-11-03T23:08:00.000+08:00

only now i know, all along the fool aint u.
it's me.

shouldnt have done so much for you.
trying to make it up.
even if you dont appreciate it, you dont have to put it so harshly.
for all you know, ultimately you're hurting me.
i will not say a word from now.
treat me as non-existent.

blah-

2006-11-03T00:40:00.000+08:00

pw is HELL.
Was pretty smooth at first.
But i've gotta keep re-doing the website.
Quite amazed by my knowlege of htmls and all. -smirk

Didnt do well for promos.
Condi though.
gotta work my ass off during the hols.
mug mug mug. argh.
wad a sad life!

I'm going to make an important annoucement...

i'm going to be a nerd from now on.
No social life. Just study study and more study!

hahs. Hope by the end of next year i will become a geek.
geek/ nerd = smart!
Get the reason why i wanna be a nerd now?
oh wells.

i realised i've got no goal in life.
apart from getting good grades.
actually this is not a goal but an expectation from parents.
aren't you feeling this way too?
dont lie.
sigh.

Anyway, if anyone so happen to be able to contact MELISSA YONG XINGZI
pls get her to call me.
she's MIA-ing again!
for goodness sake, where the hell is she?!
wanna bite her head off! grrrr.

Sassy SEVENTEEN

2006-10-15T01:06:00.000+08:00

Thanks everyone for cheering me up these days!

Quite a memorable birthday.
Took some funny photos.
It's already uploaded.
Go check it out!!

disappointed

2006-10-12T11:47:00.000+08:00

disappointed so be it.

Girl Next Door

2006-09-11T00:40:00.000+08:00

Girl Next Door

Small town homecoming queen
She's the star in this scene
There's no way to deny she's lovely
Perfect skin, perfect hair
Perfumed hearts everywhere
Tell myself that inside she's ugly
Maybe I'm just jealousI can't help but hate her
Secretly I wonder if my boyfriend wants to date her

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleeping on the floor
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door

Senior class president
She must be heaven sent
She was never the last one standing
A backseat debutaunt
Everything that you want
Never to harsh or too demanding
Maybe I'll admit it
I'm a little bitter
Everybody loves her but I just wanna hit her

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleeping on the floor
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door

I don't know why I'm feeling sorry for myself
I spend all my time wishing that I was someone else

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleeping on the floo
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door

Deepest Gratitude

2006-09-03T14:17:00.000+08:00

My greatest gratitude to the person who wrote this to me. .

To Elizabeth, remember life is not just bury your head in the piles and piles of books, notes, reports, etc to pass exams. These are necessary evils. They are not the end. You are young with a long life ahead. Enjoy your youth, experiment and try out new things (within certain perimeter). You need not be a genius to live a full and meaningful life. Do the things you like to do as long as you are happy and know what you are doing. In life there are many more crossroads and obstacles along the way. Each crossroad you cross and each obstacles you surmount will make you wiser and prepare you to face the next one at the bend.

He attached a story in his email. A story which make me realise smt.. Thank you Uncle George.

Human..

2006-08-30T22:00:00.000+08:00

I dont understand why two people decide to be together even though they know that the other person is not who they want to spent their life with in the future.
Why put each other in such a misery?
You already know the ending..
Why go through all those heartbreaks time and again?

Even if they think that he or she is the right one, they still break the vows they made.
Where has the lifetime commitment gone to?
Why fall for someone else and hurt someone who you loved so much, someone who you made a lifetime promise to?

Some people say the power of love is undeniably the strongest driving force.
But this driving force can hinder one's judgement.
One wrong judgement can cost you all the agony.
This misery can even last a lifetime.
So why be a victim of such circumstances?

Dont ask me whether i'm okay or not after reading this entry.
I just wanna express my thoughts.
That's all.

~~i dont see the old you anymore.~~

Retail therapy

2006-08-12T23:08:00.000+08:00

Finally had my long waited retail therapy.
Today's retail therapy quite shiok! haha.
Dearest mummy paid for everything!!!

Bought two pairs of jeans, a couple of tops, two girl boxers, eye shadow, masks..
woohoo~
Could have shopped longer but mummy was rushing off to somewhere.
Had dinner at Ding Tai Feng.
Wasnt as delicious as expected.
The food was kinda cold.
didnt eat much.

Dont hold on to smt that has no future.
All i can say is i didnt mean to hurt you.
Call me a bitch if you want.

Long since i've updated

2006-08-11T22:45:00.000+08:00

Havent been updating lately.
Too many things cramped up tgt.
Stressed.

I'm going to put up the link to the wedding photos soon.
i promise.
Imagestation is kinda slow. argh.
But here's a sneak peek!
(pictures are kinda distorted.)

The newly weds

Romantic.

Daddy & Mummy.

Posing with style. XD

Thanks for your understanding. Hope things will be as before. (:

Wedding..

2006-07-17T23:19:00.000+08:00

My bro's wedding is over..
What an eventful weekend. heh.
Shall update more bout it next time.
Gotta go catch up on my sleep!
=D

now i know how much these lil things mean to you..

screwed up life

2006-06-22T01:09:00.000+08:00

damn my blardy screwed up life!